知足.

怎么去拥有 一道彩虹
怎么去拥抱 一夏天的风
天上的星星 笑地上的人
总是不能懂 不能觉得足够 如果我爱上 你的笑容 要怎么收藏 要怎么拥有
如果你快乐 不是为我 会不会放手 其实才是拥有 当一阵风吹来 风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷 而祝福 而感动
终于你身影 消失在 人海尽头 才发现 笑着哭 最痛 那天你和我 那个山丘 那样的唱着 那一年的歌
那样的回忆 那么足够 足够我天天 都品尝着寂寞 当一阵风吹来 风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷 而祝福 而感动
终于你身影 消失在 人海尽头 才发现 笑着哭 最痛 如果我爱上 你的笑容 要怎么收藏 要怎么拥有
如果你快乐 不是为我 会不会放手 其实才是拥有 　 知足的快乐 叫我忍受心痛
知足的快乐 叫我忍受心痛
:')

Bread and butter #449 (Start and go OR crash and burn?)

Start and go OR crash and burn?

The answer will be out. Very soon.

Updates at 8:53PM

Sometimes we will crash and burn... sometimes we will start and go... we can control the situation to a certain extent, but it really depends... on the physical and emotional condition of the driver, the road conditions as well as the environmental conditions (which sometimes are unpredictable or uncontrollable). We can only try our best to gear the vehicle such that we can reduce the possible of crashing and burning...

Today, there is no crash and burn. The vehicle started well, and the driver is safe and sound. Hopefully, tendency to crash and burn in the future can be reduced. It will be reduced... =)

Weddings and sisters.

I know this is so bimbotic and all... but I would like to share my sisters' attires for this year. Hahaha.

For my dearest German Beauty, who's like my big sister... I will be wearing one of these convenient and comfortable-looking tops with jeans! How cool is that. It's going to be super convenient for me as I would be rushing off for work in the afternoon and then rushing back for her wedding dinner at night. Guess which one I chose.


For my secondary school buddy, I will be wearing this scarily sexy and short dress. I hope it's not too short for me! >_<

Oh well, I guess on both occasions I would have to make some sacrifices, for example, rushing like a mad cow on Wedding Day #1 and having to be super careful while wearing that short *gulps* dress and probably heels *gulps* too... but it's okay for my dearest friends. It's OKAY! Looking forward to more happy occasions!

One of my greatest love.

So tempted to buy the mug but I controlled myself. I bought a handbag instead. Woops.

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Bread and butter #448 (Another level.)

I am quite glad that I've been given the opportunity to do that presentation. Other than building up my presentation skills, I am also being given an opportunity to hear what people from another level would say about the work we do. Am feeling thankful that there are people who are genuinely interested in our work (and hopefully will provide more support). And the dialogue was interesting, albeit my responses were slightly crippled and could have been better...

Nonetheless, very interesting exposure! :)

I CAN DO IT!

Think good! *Clap* Feel good! *Clap Clap* Think good, feel good! *Clap Clap Clap*
-That's what Papa Elephant said!

I am glad that I was being pushed to take on more challenges this year... With some amount of hard work, self-talk... and the moral support from Bad Music, it really helps... Yippie! =)

Pistachio Love.

Simply love this picture and love the simple happiness captured. =)

Bread and butter #447 (Just another busy day...)

After getting to know that my long holiday trip might be cancelled because of some stupid reason (to me, it's stupid because I feel my personal welfare is more important than anything else... especially when I feel I am dying from all the work and lack of rest), I've been of the lowest mood you can ever imagine. I really need a break, and I think no one could ever understand that feeling.

I am thankful that this morning, I received some sunshine from Seok Ai whom I was whatsapp-ing with. Then I went for my second session of primary school classroom groupwork which still requires some hard work from my end. Then I headed back for a discussion with little preparation and felt bad about it. Then I rested for a bit before realising that I have not compiled my annual -_- statistics for all my cases and programmes. So after lunch, it was "statistics" all the way... until I had a meeting at 4pm. That leaves me approximately an hour to prepare for my programmes because students will start streaming in quite early these days.

Halfway through my day, I received a message from Sunrise and that really made my day. This made me recall that sometimes we really can't do anything except to stand by them and to always believe in them...

I was being posed a question that I know clearly I would break down if I were to answer, so I chose not to. Sincerity V.S. Skills... hmm...

Was posed a challenge towards the end of the day after working 14 hours... tried challenging myself to handle it all by myself, but I guess a check is always better and safer. I realise I have done a lot of steps by myself, and I'm only missing by a few steps. So praying and hoping that there will be improvement some day...

Am still feeling low about the cancellation of long holidays... so I am just trudging on, doing whatever I can. And I am really glad that I have my YMP & START mentors to support me... and a wonderful boss definitely, who bought me two char siew baos and done so much more...

Alright, I need to go to bed... @_@

=)

That full-of-正义感 comment from a friend who stood up for my human rights...

That warm and nice email from a faraway friend...

And the usual MSN chat with someone I usually go to if I need a fair judgement on things...
"u know even in the bible it says
love ur neighbour as u love urself
u love everyone the SAME as u love urself
neighbor?
hahaha i dun wan love others
neighbour means ppl ard u la
ppl dun love me one.
ok selfish.
hahahaa
nonsense la u
dun love u we wun go out with uuuuuuuuuu"
(the last sentence made me cry)

And one of my manly girlfriends sent me this:

The title of the email is "For you!!!"

For your laughter... Cheer up please!
Actually I've seen this picture before, but it's the thought that really counts.

And other friends who know what are the stuffs inside my head right now. All these are small small things that probably won't matter eventually. But your support matters. Every bit of it.

P/S: Went on a "shopping spree" on Farmville and bought myself many cactus because they remind me of good memories... =)

When shit hits...

Really irritated with some stuffs, those which I have no control over, those which I have no say over, those which I rather not comment anything further...

I would truly wish that I can have my own space and do my own things, people can share things openly if not stay far away from me, people can stop being an irritant and stop being a pain in the ass, people can understand that I am a human being and I need my break.

I need comfort. I need my own space. I need friends who can be open and sincere. I need people around me to be more big-hearted and not just keep picking on unimportant details (I am fed up and disgusted with you, please stay completely away from me). I need friends to say kind words and understand things from my perspective and not just put down my needs as if they are not important. Put yourself in my shoes, please.

See. This is why I always emphasize that nobody else can love us as much as we love ourselves. If you can't be patient enough, then forget it... Don't ask why I am talking lesser- most probably I am talking lesser because I see no point in talking with you. I rather talk to air. I have no time to spare for your shit.

Enjoying life on 9th July!

To enjoy life, you don't have to think too much or talk too much... just be comfortable with the company and eat and laugh for the whole day... :)

Favourite Cover =)

This is to date, my favourite cover ever by IU =)

Bread and butter #446 (First ever primary school classroom groupwork!)

I am going to indulge myself in self-affirmation and self-celebration...!

The first ever primary school classroom groupwork in SCS Clementi Centre's history is conducted by me, me, ME!

Glad that the first session today went well... praying for smoothsailing sessions to come my way... And of course, I must continue my efforts in preparation and learning from feedback. Not forgetting the NLP I went through too, haha.

And to top it off, I have the best working partner I can ever find!

So happy! :D

P/S: Still a little upset that I lost another working partner, but I will hang in there and remember all the good moments and the belief that she had in me...

Predictability.

I love predictability still, despite facing a lot of unpredictability in life... and would appreciate if people can respect that... Feels really vulnerable when people don't respect or pay little attention to that and start to throw surprises at me. Not funny at all... not pleasant at all... T_T

Great Eastern Run- Healthy Lifestyle!

I am absolutely tickled by the group name came up by Julia when she registered for the run. JuCin. Sounds JUICY! Hahahahaha...

Anyway, the run was good except for the heat and the crowds. I'm so used to running in the evening that running in the morning makes me a little dizzy and more tired. Lots of people started walking at the start of the race. If you stop because you really cannot take it, I can understand... But I wonder what's the point of signing up when you don't even intend to run at all. You ladies are causing all the stupid jams, really.

In the end, I realised that we ran approximately 7km, according to Julia's friend. No wonder I was really MORE tired. Yippie, my first ever race. 5km only, but I'm happy enough. =) P/S: Went to eat dimsum with Lijia and her sister after the race. Morning exercise and dimsum are a good match... Yum.

金鱼

夜已深。但是我还不想睡。可能是头脑想太多了。

但有些事永远想不通。。。有时候很想做金鱼，什么都别想。。 因为什么都不记得。。。 哈哈哈！

Bread and butter #445 (Farewell, Cactus Comrade!)

Today I bid farewell to a lovely colleague and a fantastic Cactus comrade... my view of working with children is significantly influenced by her and she always manage to shake my world view under a safe environment... I can never be thankful enough. Thank you, dearest Seok Ai. I will always remember your words. "All good things need to come to an end", as long as we are alive, "create good memories"... because life is short and we got to enjoy every moment of it, right? :')

Ponder ponder.

I'm quite sure that I just want to care for myself and heck care the rubbish around me (if any) at any context or any point of time in my life.

How come there are people who can care generously and endlessly when they themselves have challenges in life? If I can't care as much as others, does that mean that I'm lousier or of a "lower grade" of humans?

Sometimes I will wonder if I'm being too cold or too weird. No, right? It's completely normal to just care for myself, because there's not going to be any guarantee in life. No guarantee that others won't hurt me, no guarantee that others will take good care of me.

Alright. I can imagine the people around me telling me not to be too extreme, don't dwell too much, etc. But you're not me. You won't understand what I go through. You never will.

At the end of the day, I'm going to end my doubtful thoughts (for the umpteenth time) with what I always tell myself when I can't find any solutions or answers- I DUNNO LA! >_<

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Bread and butter #444 (Y.E.A.N)

Youth Evolution Awards Night.

Made cards for boys whom I've never made any for... Clapped like I've never clapped before... Cheered like I've never cheered before... Was asked to go on stage to receive thanks, a stalk of rose and a round of applause... for the first time in my life... Felt this warm fuzzy feeling that I've never felt before... especially after receiving the email the day after. Really appreciate the thought and effort behind this.

Seen so many smiles just within that 2 hours... but imagine how much hard work has been done to make this event possible... the effort made by all the kids for the past 6 months, and of course the Social Workers too.

Cheers to everyone who made it possible, and of course, cheers to the lovely kids who never gave up and showed others what they are capable of.

Learning to be Lazy.

I need to remind myself constantly not to think too much. Just sit back and relax. No need to be too hardworking in thinking about the intention behind words and actions. Sometimes, there's just no clear cut answers. And like what SA said this morning- "don't take things personally"...

:)