Oh my god.. my SS lecturer is damn lor soh.. he can go babbling for 15 minutes for only one slide.. wah lao.. but luckily i din fall asleep.. i was drinking a very refreshing mango-strawberry.. hmm~*

today and yesterday i nv see him lor.. so sad.. my motivation for gg AS7 dropped a lil.. i was thinking mayb one fine day he'll be a BIG star.. and well.. it's even more impossible to get to know him.. how sad. :'(

oh oh.. i know his name le.. ---.. sighz..

oh.. my mum doesnt wan to sign the consent forms for immersion ryte? i stick the forms wif blue tag on my table and den when i went back home yesterday, she signed them liao.. haha..

but i choose not to talk to her cos i know she'll reply in a very frustrated tone.. so i shut up.. anyway, i was asking yeeshan wad flight she took when she went europe last mth.. she mentioned air france(?) well.. it's thousand chu.. erm.. so far only faith's tic seems to be the cheapest.. 900 plus.. i hope it can get cheaper.. *pray*

wahlao.. someppl wan to stay in the same host family.. and they're (their names sound like..) guys.. so are they gays? we girls arent making so much noise and guys are making noises??!?! wad the hell?!

and when i was lamenting tt i havent seen him for two days.. i see him again~!! oh god! i was like sucking in my breath when he walked past me.. looking at eye candy is esp a gd experience.. and it gives me energy after tt damn boring SS lecture.. yay! *eyes brighten up*

my fringe sucks like hell.. so i KA-CHA~!!! cut them shorter.. now i look a lil more idiotic but less ah-ma.. so beta? anyway, i'm still thinking of curling my hair.. curls make girls look so girly..haha..

erm..nth else to say abt le la.. so.. *bub-bye*~!!

OH MY GOD~!!!

i saw him AGAIN~!! at AS 7.. i was thinkin if i cld see him again and ta-da~!!!

i really saw him again!!! so unbelievable..

anyway, today, jialing handed in the immersion form.. she'd decided to go.. haha.. so we'll be touring together.. after so much traumatising thinking, we still ended up gg.. haha.. so funny..

and i realised tt frau neumann is actually quite nice.. hmm.. the way she talked to me and jialing.. it's like.. she's both serious and humorous.. and i dunno la.. she's nice.

shall start planning the trip soon~!! yay~!

haiyo~!!! julia.. tt's bcos i'm happy someone misses me mah.. cannot put izt? huh??? stupid julia..

haha.. anyway, wah...

it's been such a LONG LONG time since i blog.. first time got such a big break.. erm.. not a break. but a break fr blogging ..i've been surviving quite well w/o internet jus tt at night i'll sleepwalk and in the day.. i pull my hair until my hands are full of my hair.. NO LA.. haha jus joking.

yep.. recently, was unhappy wif my mum again but neh.. everything will turn out fine.. it's always like that..

my studies ah.. psycho has been very traumatising.. a lot of damn terms.. and today, we played a taboo game.. and guess what.. i was tabooed twice.. yucks.

my first one is "David Beckham" and i said.. "oh..he's a man... a very famous man.."

and the buzzer go THaaEEEEE~!!!

"she said man~!!!"

what the hell.. one of the words that i cldnt mentioned is man. cos he is previously fr Man-U. i tell u. beckham sucks. i used to like him but i feel that he sucks now. haha.. but anyway, another cindy.. cindy tan from class 34 saved our day.. our team won in the end.. yay~!! so happy..

last tutorial liao lo..wont see that damn man anymore.. yay~!!

the govt shd kill all the smokers cos they all killing the non-smokers~!!!!

so smelly.. can they jus shut their mouth up so we wont smell the smoke? what the hell..

urgh, i'm gg to kill them liao la.

my skin sucks big time now.. pimples and unknown objects keep appearg on my skin and i look as if i've been beaten up.. what the hell...

Somebody says she miss me...

ya..haa..life's been so dry and boring that it's good to receive some heartwarming emails fr friends. esp'y u la..haiz. miss u all like crazy. *cries* (don't try to scold me for not going NUS le, i'm feeling quite sore abt it already.) lots have happened in school..and ya, haha, it's sometimes quite sad to look back at those innocent days we've had. hope to see u soon too, and GOOD LUCK FOR EXAMS! ;) -julia

ok..let's see how i'll view this in the future.. mayb when i'm a total adult? how will i feel and stuff.. when i look back at my uni days i mean..

today is an ok day lor..

i suddenly tot of whether i shd buy a personal com at all anot.. cos there are sch computers to be used.. but it's not always convenient.. but applying for internet requires money.. buying com requires money.. and maintenance??

and not to forget my place for immersion is not yet confirmed..

and.. will i buy a digicam?

then comes the usual concern of mine.. what shall i major in??? bonkers liao la..

i know these concerns seem to be stupid but i still get all crazy over them..

WHAT SHD I DO?!?!?!?

Nothing much to post actually.. but one thing tt i wanna say is that..

go watch the 9pm show on channel 8 now~! it's got the NUS xiao cao inside.. his role is actually not v suitable for his img actually.. he's more of the ABC type of guy.. and the show is featuring him as a tu-sheng-tu-zhang de Singaporean Ah Beng. so i find it quite hilarious. may if he's playing Julian Hee's role, it'll be more suitable. but anyway, it's a try.. haha.. not very gd acting skills but.. there's always room for improvement. oh my god.. why am i promoting for him?? am i in love wif him?? haha..

anyway, i saw him at AS7 tt day when i was printing my stuff and he stood behind me.. he's damn macho but.. nee.. he's not my type.. my man shdnt be too handsome cos i dun wan other girls to oogle at him. haha ..

stupid.. anyway, i dun have com in my new residence and my niao bro wont allow me to use his bao bei laptop so i'll have to use sch com lor. no choice. cos i dun wanna spend extra money on the internet svc charge la.. even tho my uncle is willing to buy the PC for me. urgh. so...

better get on to my work then~!!

X X X

wrong! i am not packing for my immersion.. i'm packing for my move.. move to my new residence..

my OWN residence.. yay! say congratulations to cindy~!!

today's a rather ??? day..

i went all the stupid way to Suntec City for the Natas Tour thingy to realise tt i have to pay $3 to get in.. and i only got six dollars wif me.. wad the...

then i was actually quite tempted to buy tickets to germany.. but after realising tt frau neumann havent even gave me a confirmed answer.. i cldnt jus buy liddat.. and my german frends wldnt jus accomodate wif me and miss out the attractive offers.. so i felt very helpless.. and thus, i even thought of not gg for the immersion at all..

i mean, why go alone? if my frends booked the tixs already.. i'll be sort of flying alone unless i amazingly booked the same flight as them. urgh. so.. i'm still considering.. it's still not too late for me to change my mind.. i shd jus think thru it slowly... sighz..

and i msged shaowei.. and she has not booked any tix! and she dun plan to tour for a long time.. for me, i felt tt one mth shd be enuff.. but my other frends wan to tour for like two months.. oh god.. i will feel so damn guilty lor.. leaving my mum all alone.. and she'll definitely not feel good abt my trip. urgh.

plus, all the expenses are paid by me. my frends at least got their parents to sponsor them. me? DIFFERENT story lor.. hmm.. so mayb i shd jus go for one mth then really go tour germany ''in details''?

Now they change their plans to London.. after the immersion.. wad wad wad??

sighz.. now i know why my mum says "u cant totally depend on frends".. if no one willing to tour europe wif me, i'll jus save more money and go wif my mum. or go alone. so sad...

i spent 6 whole hrs packing~!!

my back is so pain and i feel like.. numb.. urgh..

OoO.. so handsome~!!! hah hah...
i visited some bloggy and find this very cute and sweet website.. http://myweb.hinet.net/home4/kinlei/index2.htm
Check it out~!

another webby.. http://home.kimo.com.tw/yiting0124/index2.htm
i dunno if it's blog or wad.. she puts game links there.. and they are real simple games.. whh u'll enjoy playing wif.. try it out too~!

tschüs~!♥

As usual, my fav Jang Dong Gun.. Not long later, i'm gg to have my own residence but i dun think i'll get one com.. cos i can use it in sch? plus, have to pay all the internet bills myself.. mayb chi bu xiao ah.. haiz.. but i still have damn loads of pictures to share lehz.. sighz.. i saw a very nice.. jing zhi.. digicam yesterday.. so tempted to buy for myself.. only 299.. hah..

Here's the translation~!

Say ' to me, what have you done?
Container out your heart and eye.
Say, what it is you widerfahr'n
that it accepted such extent?
Say ', what has you imagined?
So inspired of intoxication and rise up placed
yourself you to this battle.
Fallen at one night

What is the matter with you?
Which you carry in you that yourr
iot is not able to restrain.

Refrain:

But you know, we are one.
Because I feel your pulse impact near with me.
We are one, but I am afraid
that I him once lose ',
we are one, because I am familiarly
with each part of you.
We are one, but I beafraid ' it too verlier'n.

Regard ' you, your mirror image
is in such a way drawn from the life.
Mach ' from your shade light.
we are one, only you and I.

What is the matter with you?
Which you carry in you
that your riot is not able to restrain.

But you know, we are one.
Because I feel your pulse impact near with me.
We are one, but I be afraid ' it too verlier'n.

Delete ' the thought of disagreement.
You are not debt, why it doeswrong to you.
Errors disappear in the vortex the time.
I am ready.

But you know, we are one.
because I feel your pulse impact near with me.
We are one, but I am afraid
that I him once lose '.
We are one, because I am familiar
with everyone part of you.
We are one, but I be afraid ' it too verlier'n.

(verlieren shd means wearing off..)

wah.. i took such a long time to translate..haha.. anyway, no la.. i did it on some webby.. babblefish.. some lines might not make sense at all cos it's not translated by human.. heh.

BTW, the song is damn nice man~!!!

it's still playing like a music CD in my head.. cant stand it man!!!

just finished my stupid psycho test. it kinda sucks. but i already noe it'll suck so this time round.. i was quite kan de kai.. so i finished all the damn deadlines. leaving only the german vocab test next week..

i forgot wad i wanna say le.. stupid..

anyway, i still dunno wad i wanna be leh.. julia, wad do u wanna be huh? econs teacher?

i like him~!!!

YES. Tom Albrecht.

i went to his homepage and i was like.. "AHHh~!!!

i've never been so in love with anyone's singing.. e last time i did was jay chou i think.

Oh My God. i like his voice very much.. he sounds very cool~! and he sound like some angmo singer.. but haha.. i like him better for his exotic-ness.. german mah.. haha.. i think i might as well grab his album if i see it.. i think he's v popular now in germany..

Visit his webby? and u can try listening to bits of his song.. ya.. bits only.

i tot can hear the whole song. then i dun need to look for his album.. but apparently, u still have to buy. urgh. i'll see la..

See my recent craze.

Anyway, i might be gg for the immersion.. cos i gave the form.. but they might not allow me to go cos the number gg already too much le.

but i dun really mind not gg now.. (i know i'm being very fickle-minded..) but.. i think we have to book tickets for ourselves.. which i find not comfortable wif.. it's all very independent thingy.. u can go there earlier.. or come back later..

ALL UP TO U.

it's so independent.. such tt i'm a lil scared. wad if my frends wanna tour europe and i was left all alone on a plane.. fly myself back to singapore.. ih my god.. blur cindy alone??

but actually i feel like extending my trip cos it's so cheap to travel internally in europe!!! it's like less than $100!!! wahlao. if i dun go, i'm dumb ryte?

and so.. only the three weeks is under the sch.. u can fly ur own way to Muenster. and then meet at somewhere.. wah.. like as if we noe Germany very well.. as that teacher explained wad we have to do.. i started regretting..

even tho i wana be independent, i dun wanna be TOO independent~!!

cos i'm so blur.. and there's like no adults to guide us..

and i KNOW THAT MY MUM DUN LIKE THE IDEA of me gg for immersion.

cos i talked to her abt it and she dun really wana listen.. can tell one.. but her approval is not the qn now.. it's me. my own stupid brain..

anyway, even if i wana go..i may not get the chance cos ya.. as i said earlier.. exceeded no. le.. if i go wif geokwei, i feel safer.. cos she knows a lot of things whh i dunno.. haha.. i hope some 6 ppl will sign up for the july one.. then mayb we 9 ppl can go tog.. safer.. cos this may/june grp.. there's a lot of ppl we dun even noe.. and.. ya..i have doubts.

so.. it all depends on whether they can get a host family for me.. so.. let's wait and see.

I totally screwed up...

for my german oral.

TOTALLY.

think i might as well fail.

Frau Verry asked me the first qn and i was totally stunned.

Was machst du am National Feier Tage?

then i stumbled..

"hmm.. Ich bin mit meiner Freundin geschwommen.. Und.. ich habe Abendessen mit meiner ganzen Familie gegessen.. und.. ich habe mit meiner Freundin ins Kino gegehen.."
(mit shivering voice)

U swim on National Day?? that's so funny..

er... heh.. ya.

then everything was like shit la. i'll be happy as long as i dun fail..oh god!

Tom Albrecht - Wir sind eins ( We are One)

this is one german song whh i find most appealing.. haha.. it's quite nice according to my standards.. or perhaps i jus like sad love songs very much.. heh.
...
Er ist 22 Jahre alt und schon mit seinem ersten Single erfolgreich. Nun ist er ein neuer Star in der deutschen Popmusik.Das Lied ist eine Geschichte über die Freundschaft von 2 Männern. Sie können sich nicht mehr treffen, denn der eine sitzt im Gefängnis (=prison).

Sag' mir , was hast Du getan ?
Schütte aus Dein Herz und Auge .
Sag, was ist Dir widerfahr'n ,
dass es solch Ausmass annahm ?
Sag' , was hat Du Dir gedacht ?
So beseelt von Rausch und Rage
Stelltest Du Dich dieser Schlacht.
Abgestürzt in einer Nacht

Was ist los mit Dir ?
Was trägst Du in Dir ,
dass Deine Aufruhr nicht zu bändigen vermag .

Refrain:

Doch Du weißt , wir sind eins .
Denn ich fühle Deinen Pulsschlag nah bei mir .
Wir sind eins , doch ich fürchte ,
dass ich ihn einmal verlier' ,
Wir sind eins , denn ich bin vertraut
mit jedem Teil von Dir .
Wir sind eins , doch ich fürcht' ihn zu verlier'n .

Sieh' Dich an , Dein Spiegelbild
ist vom Leben so gezeichnet .
Mach' aus Deinem Schatten Licht .
wir sind eins , nur Du und ich .

Was ist los mit Dir ?
Was trägst Du in Dir ,
dass Deine Aufruhr nicht zu bändigen vermag.

Doch du weißt , wir sind eins .
Denn ich fühle Deinen Pulsschlag nah bei mir .
Wir sind eins , doch ich fürcht' ihn zu verlier'n .

Lösch' den Gedanken von Uneinigkeit .
Du bist nicht schuld , warum tut es Dir leid .
Fehler verschwinden im Strudel der Zeit .
Ich bin bereit .

Doch du weißt , wir sind eins .
denn ich fühle Deinen Pulsschlag nah bei mir .
Wir sind eins , doch ich fürchte ,
dass ich ihn einmal verlier' .
Wir sind eins , denn ich bin vertraut
mit jedem teil von Dir .
Wir sind eins , doch ich fürcht' ihn zu verlier'n .

i slowly translate some other time k..

Had my psycho tutorial today and a mini quiz whh will grant us bonus pts for my final CA. but.. erm.. i dun think i'll do well for it.. even if i do well, that old man will still try to fail me.. i dunno why i have such a bad impression of him. dun ask. i jus dunno why.

wad interference theory.. primacy effect la.. all the theories filled my head.. my brain as if exploding.. urgh. i hate psychology.

On the other hand, i'm more and more interested in social work.. i was so inspired to do my social work essay.. haha.. not a lot of pressure when doing it.. jus always think a lot.. my brain thinks a lot when i'm typing the SW essay..

who knows. i might be a social worker one day and be praised by Mr Lee Hsien Loong.. den given a lot of money.. den become the world's filthy rich woman.

ok..my life seems to be only abt Money Money Money. alryte.. who knows i might turn out to be a social worker. yes social worker got salary one.. go read the nus webby if u dunno wad's all this abt. d.u.m.b!

so i'll jus contd to slog..tiaoz. i'm jus here to babble rubbish again. wad the hell.

A very straightforward post..

today i was sorta forced to go shopping wif my mum. she said she got loads of stuff to buy.. ended up only buy three stupid things.. urgh.. zhao zhi dao i dun go.. i gave complete smelly faces to my bro and my mum.. and i dun care. i really really so buay song wif them.

now dun try to act smart and say tt i'm silly. I'M NOT! in fact, i've matured a whole lot but nobody appreciates while my bros are still like lil kiddos asking for this and that and nv sacrifice a teeny weeny lil bit. i hate them.

oh.. i see ppl with digital camera.. and i go..

"How i wish i cld have one too~" *shimmering eyes*

well... actually i plan to buy one for myself b4 i got for immersion so tt i can capture beautiful pics overseas.. but now.. i saved abt a few thousands.. all the more i cld buy ryte?? haha..

i'm not gonna share it wif other ppl like my future sis-in-law.

yes. i'm a selfish girl.

i saved all those damn money wif blood and tears. and i have the right to be selfish. :P

it shall be my birthday prezzie for myself dis yr.. happy birthday to me~!!

i hope by posting this picture, i will feel better.. sighz..

sighz..

i'm in a down mood again.. but it's not PMS lehz..

i'm not gg to the immersion le.. cos of various reasons. but ryte now, i shd jus get down to serious studying first. If i still feel like gg, i shall go during next summer..

well.. i'm being told tt i'm mei yong again la.. since the year i'm born, i'm always accused of being stupid and zhu nao.. so i'm rather accustomed to it.. but i'm still hurt everytime i get scolded. (get= still happening today)

plus, all thanks to my stupid red slippers (the buckle), i cut my poor lil toe.. and blood oozed out w/o me noticing it.. when i realized it, blood was already sort of all over and i was like "WAD??!?"

well.. i dunno wad to say la.. i hate my mum yesterday and today for wad she had done to me. and i hate my bros too. i hate everyone.


DUN COMMENT. (dun even try to tag.)

Sweet 18...

Yesterday I went to Elayne's house wif jialing to record voice for the German Movie thingy.. spent ard four hours planning and recording.. and then she offered to show us one Korean drama that she downloaded.. haha.. so we watched one hour of tv.. yep yep..

the K drama is actually quite hilarious and romantic.. great for romantic freaks.. i enjoyed it.

"In this stirring TV series Han Ji-hye plays the pampered & reckless 18 year old Yoon Jung-sook. The energetic girl comes from an ancient honorable home that lost all its possessions due to the negligence of her father and now lives life as she sees fit.

Everything changes abruptly after one of her usual disco adventures during which she is arrested by her soon-to-be-husband Kwon Hyuck-jun (Lee Dong-gun).

Actually, Hyuck-jun comes from a very influential family whose head decided on the marriage of Hyuck-jun and Jung-sook together with Jung-sook's grandfather a long time ago.

Discover how Jung-sook and the 10-year older Hyuck-jun make the best out of their initially dreary fate in "SWEET 18"!

the way she met her dream man.. is like so damn funny.. the male lead's actually attending a tradition class.. and he has to wear the traditional Korean costume when he attends those classes..and suddenly, he received a call saying tt his car was being tolled away..

in desperation, he ran out like that.. tt means in his traditional costume.. while chasing after the car.. he covered his face with a fan so tt ppl wont recognise him..

In the process, he bumped into a girl (female lead) and he dropped his book.. (a book abt the sayings of Kong Zi-Confucius) this female lead was shouting like hell "why the hell wld anyone read this sort of bk today?!" She recognise it as she rem tt her grandpa loves the book..

this guy then turned ard.. (with the fan blocking his face) and tt girl was hilariously mesmerised by his yan shen (eyes).. then he grabbed the book and ran away.. from tt day onwards, this girl was like dreaming abt tt guy everyday until one day..

She was dancing in a disco and was caught by a prosecutor (male lead) because she was under 18. then one day.. male's lead grandpa want him to marry his frend's granddaughter (female lead).. they were arranged to meet...

basically, it was hilarious and the female lead will want desperately to marry him cos she found out tt he's the dream man she's thinking of everyday..

Zhen Me Ban~???

ya.. i'm feeling blue now.. very 烦 abt whether i shd go for the immersion. Is it really worth the money? will i benefit from it? so many qns popped out fr my head.. my mum wans me to decide for myself and now i finally know that growing up and making decisions are so tough. U dunno if ure doing the right thing.. sighz.

i'm still not ok with the choosing.. i din think in my bed even tho i told jialing i will.. i'm so tired tt i immediately fell asleep. urgh.. and now, i'm back here lookin thru my essay.. sianz. i troubled so much ppl with my probs.. firstly, julia.. then yujie.. then yuwei.. haiz..

shd i go anot?

Pros:
mayb my German will improve after three weeks of immersing myself in Germany.. then it'll be v helpful when i contd wif german 3 and 4 next sem..

i'll learn more.. their culture.. and also, i learn how to be more independent.. not always depending on my mum.. another step towards independence.

if i dun go now, i will never have such a chance later on in my life. As in the home stay thingy.. U cant jus go overseas and say u wan to live in their houses ryte?

i need the money.. but i can earn later ryte? as in during my sem hols.. i can earn more money next sem.. and next next sem (long hol break) after my year two..

Cons:
i seem to be very ren xing tt i insists to go even tho we're not very rich. As in, u wont die from not gg, so why must go this time ard? why cant wait till i grad then i tour ard europe? why must NOW?

money issues.. my family need money. tho not desperately.. but my savings are supposed to pay up my uni fees.. which sucks.

ok. i still cant think properly.. HOW??

A ji dong fan of Herr Chan blogs..

I SAW HERR CHAN~!!!!!

but he din see me.. *disappointed*

i like him jus like how i like Mr Alex Tan.. those are teachers whom make me love the things that they teach.. i'm so so so happy tt herr chan looks jus as good. haha.. i hope i can survive thru all the traumatising german to get to see Herr Chan at higher levels of german (he's teaching the higher levels now..) :(

let's hope i can get to see him again.. yay~!

well.. i finally handed in my SS essay and did i say that the family essay deadline will be extended? how kind.. but still wont help much la.. cos still have to bia for it.. so me gonna bia for it now.. meanwhile, when i recall some interestg stuff, i shall update~! haha

i saw herr chan jus now...


i saw herr chan jus now...


i saw herr chan jus now...

oh my god.. unglaublich.. aber wahr~*
(unbelievable but true)

So funy.. have i mentioned that these few days i keep seeing ppl who look like celebrities?

Firstly, from NUS, i saw someone who looks like Feng De Lun (Stephen Fung).. i used to be mad abt him during sec 3.. haha..

Den, on the bus, i saw someone who looks like Jay Chou.. jus tat he got this v cool goatie on his chin.. he seems to be from the Clementi ITE. cool~!

Next, which is yesterday, i saw someone from Clementi ITE again.. who looks like Toro! my jaw was practically falling.. haha..

In addition, there's this guy in my German class who looks like Ah Cheng( dunno wad's his real name). goodness.

GOOD NEWS~!!!

I finished my SS essay~!!! but only got three extra literature.. erm.. heh. so paiseh.. dunno will get lower grades or not.

Wahlao.. din noe tt the pictures so damn small.. hrmph!

eh~ handsome hor? haha..

i only chose those whh looks nice.. and sort of interestg fotos. got character sia!

Remember dat day i was surfing for jang dong jun? haha.. here are the pics i found.. heh.

I need to fall in love again..

"went to Frau Verry's group for make up lec yesterday.....her lessons are so much more fun....at least she won't stare at me and berate me for using the dictionary.........i realized actually how fun German can be....sth i forgot this sem.....lol"

well.. sighz.. this is written by a guy from my previous German class.. well... hmm..

Anyway, i tot we are supposed to use our dictionary in class. I remember last sem Mr.. oops..HERR Chan always stare at us when we dun bring our dictionary.. i mean.. Come on la.. we're learnin a brand new lang.. why dun this teacher be more understanding? *shakes head* this is not the spirit of being a lang. teacher~!!!

Herr Chan always use every chance to tell us more abt German culture and stuff.. but now.. my lecturer.. mayb she's not v experienced.. German is jus like other modules. dry and sian. i hate to say this for my fav german class. i used to like it so much! Whenever i felt v tired, i step into my german class and i got so energized.. dun feel like sleeping at all~! but.. now...

I hope someone could actually inject life into my German and make me fall in love with it all over again.

i miss that feeling. i miss herr chan..

Bad News.

i typed so much yesterday and all of them might be useless afterall cos i havent decide on my stand. HOW??? i'm going to die soon la.. i'm waking up early to do essays.. staying back in sch to do it.. feel like puking!

dunno if i'm repeating but i have this series of 5 impt happenings in these two weeks. handing in of family essay, SS essay, SW essay, German Oral and worst of all ANOTHER Psycho test. Am i sort of punished for going all out for psycho when i was bidding? Tho it's interestg, i find the exams damn sucky. i almost failed.. 29/50.. i looked everywhere.. and see better grades. URGH~

but it's ok la. i'm used to failing in my JC. this is nth compared to my F in history. Anyway, really so sian.. i haven started on my SS~!!!
SHIT...

Oh.. julia arh.. falling in love wif older men does not necc. mean getting into trouble wad. it depends on who u're falling in love with and his motives. well. i dun think i'll do stupid stuff one la. i believe i'm sensible enough not to make silly mistakes. and ya.. dunch wori~! u shd wori for my incomplete essays.

this is exactly how i feel now.. typed so much but wana try to think of ways to make them relevant. hell. *screams*

Did U watch Moulin Rouge yesterday? i did.

dis survey of mine got 36 results. i even had an edited one cos i left out some impt stuff in the 1st one..how dumb. For the Occupation, i forgot to put NS as an option. Den for Religion, i forgot to put 'free-thinker'. sigh.

So i had a lot of fun looking at ppl's responses.. Out of the 36 ppl, 12 were males. and the rest, females(of course! annie even asked me why i put 'others pls specify'.haha..).

Only 6 ppl said that they want a physically good-looking partner.. WU YA BO?? (really in hokkien) Dun try to fool me u stupid guys.. haha.. i know u all wan pretty girls or else i wont be sitting here typing this. i dun belief. no matter how the guys explain man.

i mean even the plain-jane me wans someone who is of average looking.. so u guys dun wan gd-looking girls?? DUN BLUFF.

Anyway, i wana conclude by saying tt they might be compelled to say sth tt is socially acceptable even tho the survey is like ANONYMOUS? a lot of ppl skipped my last qn of my new survey! one of them is an idiot, my bro la. anw, the survey size is still rather small lor. i might not even consider it. argh.. nvm.

Yesterday i spent ard 4 hours staring at the Com so as to do my soci essay. i did only a lil. still like not half-done. I'm not v worried but i jus feel v sian. how weird. This can be shown tt i watch "Moulin Rouge" at 7pm.. i love the fanciful costumes.. so woah.. and cldnt take my eyes off the screen cos..
Nicole Kidman is so PRETTY~!!!

i was like staring at her almost (seem to be) flawless skin. (neh.. why did i say seem to be?? cos i saw a few of britney spear's pictures w/o make up and she look horrendous. Even i look prettier than her. Unbelievable.but believe it.

So basically i only spend like a few hrs thinking of my essay whh shd make me gan jiong.. but i'm not realy. i dun feel like doing it. Indeed i'm dragging. even tho the soci topic i chose is interestg, i jus dun feel like doing it.

Oh oh!! one lil interestg thing i found in a book i borrowed home for essay purposes. It says that females (who doesnt have love fr their daddies) tend to have a higher liking for older men. I choose to not believe it. But i can tell u i like men in suits. or men who is so Man tt i cant resist but take another look at them. This abv sttment is like..refering to men abv our age la.. like mayb 40++.. they still looks so attractive even tho they're already old. and u can tell tt they are v handsome in the past.. hmm.. but still, as a undergrad, i'm not tt stupid to make silly mistakes like fall in love wif an old man or wad. why wld i? i deserve someone younger bah. later he die earlier than me how?

I believe that the difficult times of life is gonna make me a stronger person.

well.. today i'm actually quite dl wif the painters who are painting my new residence. what the hell.. they're like shi zi da kai kou.. feel like smacking them. i kept ren ren ren.. then i tried to shoot them back. sometimes i jus look down on these workers. why cant they earn money in a better way.. do they feel better if they qiao my mum?

they originally said $200 den everything bao ga liao. den now they asking for this and dat.. and they nv even bring their painting trays and long long brush for the ceiling.. and this is wad Somebody called Professional. what the hell. then who am i? super woman?

Had breakfast wif my mum and i think both of us felt relieved tt everything's gonna be over soon.. no more arguments and headaches abt our residence. Nobody wld have imagined how thing's been for us for the past three years. only the two of us wld understand. Even my two irritating brothers wont know.

well.. so me gonna go do my essay le la.. I'm so stressed by them.. urgh.. and i HAVENT EVEN STARTED!!!

die liao.. X_x

I was browsing thru I magazine.. and i realise the korean actress who committed suicide is the female lead in my fav korean movie.. Brotherhood sighz.. the movie whh made me believe that true brotherhood is somewhere out there... *silent*

anyway, i'm still fed up with my bros. my violence level is still high. WATCH OUT.

MY SURVEY'S OUT FROM THE OVEN LE~!

Do It~!!

i can tell u that it's gonna be fun if u participate and give all ur honest answers k.. if u wan also can gimme a call and i'll interview u personally.. heh..

oops. shd get down to my essay while i collect responses.. OOps.

MY BROTHERS SUCKS LIKE HELL~!!!!!!

i was aspiring to do lotsa research for my soci essay.. but my mum wans me to go see furniture wif her.. so i spent the whole morning wif her.. then no choice but to settle down at my uncle's place to use my bro's com.. SO.. i was happily using.. enjoyin the air con when my bro suddenly came back and demanded the com back.

Of course i din dare to object cos he might be planning to do his own work.. i was like so grudgingly left the com seat.. and felt like crying cos i seem to be no where.. as in.. i still havent settle down on a proper topic tt i wan to do on.. I'M SO DAMN FED UP wif myself.. stimes really feel like killing myself..

As it was already 2pm, i find it no point to go back to sch, cos if i were to do tt, i wld spent like more than one hour on travelling to and fro.. so not worth it.. i might as well skip to my SS essay.

And den.. U KNOW WAD??? *clenchin fist*

MY BRO IS ACTUALLY PLAYING HIS SOCCER GAME WHILE I'M USING ALL MY BRAIN JUICE TO THINK OF WAD TO DO NEXT FOR MY ESSAY!!!!!!!$2%^!@#^&*^#*@#(7

ok.. so i was damn fed up .. damn pissed.. i feel like killing him.. seein my second bro makes me even more fed up. they jus sucks. i dunno why they sucks so much.

WHAT THE HELL.

he knows tt i need the com and why din he jus let me use?? i'm not using it to blog!!! i'm researching leh~!!!!!

GO AND DIE!!!!!

let's smack their butts!

then slap them!

Let them eat my shit!

Hang them for a while...

Tie them to a bicycle..

and then... heh heh...

SHOOT them!
and lastly, throw them into the vast blue sea~!!!

and they'll be gone forever. *applause*

Boy am i happy.

Left me gaping.

i was amazed at my Social Work discussion this morning..

i was sayin sth like those young juvenile delinquents might have some psychological probs whh they have to deal with thus leadin to psychological probs.. so i suggested that we can counsel them and perhaps provide some medication if the prob is severe la.

A: No.. i dun think medication is needed la..

B: But........... (she goes on..)

The rest: ya.. medication is required la..

Well.. what can i say?

anyway, need to go do some research le la.. Sianz i'm so tired.. my eyes seemed half-dead.. UrGh~!

SO So sO busy..

been running ard in the lib grabbing books fantically and foto stating pages for my essay.. Do lend me some sppt by taking part in my upcoming survey k.. i hope u all help me out ot i'll jus die.. nay. x-X

I realise it's been a long time since i talk abt my lessons.. as in what happened during my lessons.. heh.. after i looked thru my blog.. last sem, i was practically vomitting out wad my lecturers did.. my classmates did.. and this sem.. very lil hor?

Is it because my lessons are no longer interestg? well.. not too sure abt it..

But anyway, today i feel really giddy. During the family lecture, there's this guy who spoke OH-SO-LOUDLY and luff like no one's biz.. so damn loudly.. and he kept shaking his leg.. another two Ah-Bengs..

(yes there are ah-bengs in uni.. dun think that uni= gd ppl, gd students.. I TELL U NO LOR~!! there are ppl who smoke and mayb even engage in illegal activities.. I mean, u never know..)

who smell really bad from all the smoke they had b4 the lecture.. they smell like shit i can tell u.. i hate ppl who smoke. ARGh.. feeling like asking them to close their mouth so tt the smell doesnt come out.. what the hell.

News today said tt there'll be rain and INDEED~! it rained jus now~! normal weather's back?

alrite.. i blogged so much this few days.. haha. signs of stressful-ness.. hope everything will be over soon..

Speaking of shaking legs, another guy beside me ryte now is shaking his leg in a rhythm.. YEEE~!!!!

Efforts at achieving a higher grade... PaRtiCiPaTiOn in forum~!!!

We often expect that we will have to fall in love before we can marry. How do you recognize romantic love? How do you reconcile this with the increasing number of "mail-order" foreign brides in S'pore? Are they also "in love" with their Singaporean husbands & vice-versa?

My answer:

Yes. We often THOUGHT that we should fall in love before we get married. I would like to believe tt true love do exists but we have to admit tt true love is not everywhere.

Because, romantic love can actually stem from the fact tt for eg, a guy is rich.. Right? Some girls might just dismiss a guy when they find out tt the guy is poor, therefore unable to cater to her financial or whatever needs.

Personally, I feel tt a lot of people usually judge ppl’s ‘assets’ first before their characters. In tt case, they fall in love with the other’s assets first, then character.. This idea is actually reflected in a local drama, whereby there’s this girl who doesn’t even consider men without a steady career as her future better-half. So I doubt the existence of true romantic love.

The ‘mail-order’ foreign brides have provided a very gd example. Financial security is what they are looking for. As a lot of people have pointed out in earlier posts, true love might ‘spring up’ some day between Singaporean men and the foreign brides. Since most of the foreign brides seem so innocent and sweet, the Singaporean men might feel the need to protect and provide for them. So true love MIGHT occur.

With regards to match-making...

In my opinion, the ppl who went for the matchmaking svc might have a more positive attitude today because they have an excuse.. they can try to explain that it's their avenue to know more frends.

However, i feel tt matchmaking is still stigmatised in today's society. I had this idea after i watch the recent 9pm local drama on channel 8. It featured and (i think) placed great emphasis on Jacelyn Tay and Patricia Mok gg enthusiastically for match making sessions. ANd they are supposed to be those sort of undesirable girls in the drama.

What i mean is, they are those who do not look as pretty as other female actress in the show. (jacelyn tay bcame darker and a little uglier) Pretty girls in the drama are nv lack of suitors thru out the whole storyline.

So, i feel tt this drama is giving ppl an idea tt only those who are ''left on the shelves'' goes for matchmaking.. and tt matchmaking happens only when u are sort of desperate.

With regards to I Do I Do?

I agree with u tt I Do I Do has shown the women's ideals of their life partner.

To add on, i feel tt the movie also tried to show tt finding a life partner shd be one of our most our important goal in our life. (adrian pang crying like hell when he loses sharon au)


And, the theme song of the movie also seem to encourage ppl to get married around 30-40 yrs of age.. The lyrics stating something like.."i'm already 30.. and my frend already has loads of kids.."

The movie has reminded us of the present challenges faced by Singapore (increasing age at marriage and other social probs) but i doubt there'll be much change in ppl's attitudes toward marriage.

Goodness.. was browsing for nothing again.. haha..

see jangdonggun~!

Was listening to radio.. cant believe i like Daniel Chan in the past.. urgh.. hearing his songs reminds me of tt person and my stupid acts in front of him.. (..")

Just finished my social work visits at Ang Mo Kio Hospital and Asian Women's Welfare Association..

it was quite nice and interestg.. surprising i din fall asleep even tho i caught v lil sleep last nite.. yay! I was kind of inspired to be a social worker.. it seems dynamic lor.. hmm.. another consideration for my future..

i browsed thru friendster looking at pictures of my frends.. hmm.. some changes here and there fr time to time.. so interestg.. But my pictures remained the same.. haha.. Anyway, change so much for wad..

I also realised some of my frends broke up wif their gfs or bfs.. hmm.. another interestg phenomenum..

k.. shall go on with my work le.. I'VE SLACKED ENOUGH~!!!