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Being Myself.

Many people talk about the importance of being yourself, and being genuine.

All along, I pride myself for being genuine. Even my friends and teacher (my favourite teacher, Mr Alex Tan) find me super genuine.

But I am starting to think that being genuine may not be the best way after all.

Yes, people may think that I do no harm and I won't do any harm to them. But I can't stop people from judging me. In this world, everyone judges in every context, every moment. And I have no say over what others think or say of me.

And when I try so hard to be genuine, yet people judge me and doubt my ability, I feel hurt and see no point in being genuine.

But I will continue to be genuine (this is the way I truly am), to the people who really cares and still embraces me despite all odds. I don't need people to point out my weaknesses or shortcomings. I just need people who care and are willing to journey with me, and perhaps sometimes give me a pat on my shoulder to just tell me that I am fine the way I am.

Bread and butter #462 (Social Workers' Day.)

On this day this year, I found out that the adorable boy whom I met only twice is in a vulnerable state and I have mixed feelings about what he is going through now. Such a young boy and he has to go through all these. I wanted to do more for him, but I know now he's in good hands.

On this day this year, another older boy whom I've known for 2 years shared with me his fears and feelings for the very first time. I feel heartened that he trusts me and is comfortable enough to show his soft and sweet side.

I may or may not be the most efficient, effective or outstanding SW, but I have to bear in mind that I am fortunate enough to do the work that I like to do, to meet these wonderful kids and to be able to journey with them. And when morale is running low, the kids kept me going. I will hang in there. For them, and for myself.

Bread and butter #461 (Do you miss me?)

A youth didn't come for my programme, so I left him a message asking him about it.

And he asked, "So did you miss me?"

"Yes, I miss seeing you doing your work diligently."

Hahahahaha... Actually, I do miss his presence lah. It's funny how the most irritating kids can bring so much joy into our work. Don't know how I am going to cope with the loss of 4 Secondary 4 boys at the end of this year. Sigh... T-T

:'(

Water retention. Pain in the head and heart.

How long can I last...

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Bread and butter #460 (Michael Bublé - Home)

Now every time I hear this song, I am reminded of my boy, his humor, the interesting moments we had during the sessions, and the heartwarming bond between him and his mom. I will look forward to see him in 8 or 9 years' time, wherever I am.