Keeping myself sane.

I have nothing to prove my worth and contribution, except little snippets and small memories I hold in my heart with our lovely students. And this is from my future firefighter, Mr H. ;)

Tried my best. The end.

Effort and time (plus all the extra sacrifices) not recognised. Okay never mind.

Small success compared to huge successes. Okay fine.

Said that I didn't try my best when I do, always. Now tell me what you want me to do.

What I do will never be recognised, will never be good, will never be enough. Seriously I don't know what else to say.

All I know is, I will try my best to not let the future generations feel the same way that I'm feeling right now...

I have tried my best. I only have myself to answer to.

Me and Mr N :)

I know that I cannot ask for returns or recognition in my field of work, and I am still learning to understand and work around that idea, and to sustain my passion and belief by remembering the core purpose of why I'm doing what I'm doing.

So I look out for small things that keep me going. Today, an old boy gave me a bracelet he bought overseas when he went for a community service project. From the way he described, it sounded as if he put in a lot of thought into choosing it specially for me.

I seriously couldn't ask for more as my own brothers haven't been giving me gifts at all- so this is such a sweet act for me, especially when I see this boy grow up from an angsty and rash youth into a calm and thoughtful young man.

I didn't journey with him through his tough times, but I've been celebrating for him all the little milestones that he had since our mrt trip together for a football match. And boy, I am so proud of him. I am sure his mom will be very proud of him too. :')

This, I shall remember.

P/S: He said he wants to go Germany with me, and I told him if he could save up and if I were to be still alive, then we can explore this. Haha!

P/P/S: He asked me why I only visit my host parents after 8 years, and related with how I feel about visiting people overseas. Maybe, I should visit more often, as long as I'm spending within my means... I love how our kids make us reflect.

I am stressed, but I can get over it!

Indeed I am. I was in denial for a while. I know I've been whining and sighing more lately- I just don't know how else to cope better. I feel bad when my colleague Gwen offered to buy me breakfast. I didn't want to accept that, but somehow I gave in. And interestingly after I accept that kind and thoughtful deed, I feel instantly better. It's like being showered upon some love, and it feels great... That somebody noticed that I need some love and offered to me. Think I want to be more open to receiving love from people around me and continue to be available for others when they need that extra love boost. It really doesn't hurt to give and accept a bit of love from each other... :)

Thank you, Gwen!

Hong Kong 2014

A short, simple yet meaningful trip. Had a lot of good food, spent pockets of solo (and hungry and lost in Macau) time, met nice Hong Kong Social Workers who are as passionate as me, and was comfortable throughout the trip because I was with my oldest buddy. What more could I ask for..? A longer trip! Hahaha...

Where to? And with who?

I realise my needs are so unique and individualized that it's challenging to find someone else who has the same/similar needs! Nevermind, I will still try and find a like-minded soul mate/mates... Or do it all by myself. And meanwhile, be comfortable with the uncertainty... :)

My Cactus Comrade!

Met up with the lovely Seok Ai who never fail to welcome me with loads of energy, a big smile and a big hug. Just like how Herr Sagemann does. :)

【做個幸福的人】

1、品味生活瞬間
2、少比較
3、不要把錢看的太重
4、有一個長遠的目標
5、主動工作
6、交朋友，珍惜家人
7、即使不開心也要微笑
8、真誠的說聲謝謝
9、出去鍛煉
10、奉獻，現在就做

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我要做地才。

只要坚持，天才和地才也可以没差别。-蔡依林