Zhen Me Ban~???

ya.. i'm feeling blue now.. very 烦 abt whether i shd go for the immersion. Is it really worth the money? will i benefit from it? so many qns popped out fr my head.. my mum wans me to decide for myself and now i finally know that growing up and making decisions are so tough. U dunno if ure doing the right thing.. sighz.

i'm still not ok with the choosing.. i din think in my bed even tho i told jialing i will.. i'm so tired tt i immediately fell asleep. urgh.. and now, i'm back here lookin thru my essay.. sianz. i troubled so much ppl with my probs.. firstly, julia.. then yujie.. then yuwei.. haiz..

shd i go anot?

Pros:
mayb my German will improve after three weeks of immersing myself in Germany.. then it'll be v helpful when i contd wif german 3 and 4 next sem..

i'll learn more.. their culture.. and also, i learn how to be more independent.. not always depending on my mum.. another step towards independence.

if i dun go now, i will never have such a chance later on in my life. As in the home stay thingy.. U cant jus go overseas and say u wan to live in their houses ryte?

i need the money.. but i can earn later ryte? as in during my sem hols.. i can earn more money next sem.. and next next sem (long hol break) after my year two..

Cons:
i seem to be very ren xing tt i insists to go even tho we're not very rich. As in, u wont die from not gg, so why must go this time ard? why cant wait till i grad then i tour ard europe? why must NOW?

money issues.. my family need money. tho not desperately.. but my savings are supposed to pay up my uni fees.. which sucks.

ok. i still cant think properly.. HOW??