Sonntag, August 19, 2012

咳...

敌不过,也斗不过。
老天,请放过我吧。

Dienstag, August 14, 2012

Bread and butter #464 (Therapeutic Mondays.)

"Values and beliefs probably can't be changed that easily... But are we able to respond in a manner so as to maintain harmony?"

I love how my therapeutic Mondays help me not just professionally, but personally as well. 我会认真学习的! :)

Sonntag, August 12, 2012

Happy long weekend! :)


The mandatory long weekend break was surprisingly relaxing and enjoyable. And even if it may sound very shallow, I really enjoyed the shopping!!! Not sure if it's bad, but I curb a lot of shopping in Singapore and I tend to splurge overseas. Most of my buys are good buys. It's short term happiness, perhaps... But I don't care man- as long as I am happy!

Dienstag, Juli 31, 2012

Counting my blessings.

There are two random persons whom I want to thank: a facial lady and my Chinese doctor.

Just being themselves and attending to me when I was at my lowest point in life. I couldn't appreciate more. It's amazing how human touch can be so warm, inspiring and heartening.

The facial lady (I can't remember her name) is a Malaysian who travels daily to Singapore for work. She doesn't hard sell the products, she does her work responsibly, and she senses her clients well. There was once she noticed that I was so tensed and stressed that she gave me a very good backrub to help me feel better. The other facial ladies just squeeze your shoulders a little and end off the session haphazardly, but she doesn't. Maybe she could sense that I was troubled. She shared with me briefly about her past and how she overcome her difficulties and how she thinks lesser nowadays and just aims to be happy everyday. I am heartened by her sharing even though I don't know her personally.

Next my Chinese doctor. He's like a nurturing father, who doesn't nag at my bad habits too much and is encouraging and caring. As he was taking my pulse (I guess he could sense my irregular pulse), he asked me if I am feeling alright and if everything is okay. Advised me to take things easy too. Simple words about life, which some people can't be bothered to tell me patiently and wait for me to understand at my own pace.

I guess I really appreciate these two random persons in my life because such nice people are hard to come by. It's surprising how strangers and random people can influence us positively... Which is why I wanted to tell the sad lady on the train, whom I met some time ago, to take care. You never know how important your little words and actions could be for others.

(Of course, this is on top of the important persons whom I should have thanked personally/ via email by now.)

Looking forward to more cheer and joy.

Donnerstag, Juli 05, 2012

撑下去。

我一定要撑下去。我一定能撑过重重难关。我一定能够更坚强。小朋友们经历的比我多,但都能撑过去。我一定要做个好榜样,比他们更坚强...不要让别人有机会看不起我!

Montag, Juli 02, 2012

Bread and butter #463 (5 year mark.)

I love social work. I love being a social worker. This is more than just bread and butter. This is my profession.

Social Work- My Colourful Profession :)))))

Mittwoch, Juni 20, 2012

When I obviously can't reject you...

It's been a long while since I've been critical about issues, due to my superbly tight schedule as well as my higher level of resilience (hahaha). But there's this weird trend going on in my life that I feel confused and clueless about... Why do people like to ask questions that are hard to say no to?

This is especially so for social gatherings. I seriously hate it when people ask me such questions:

"Can I bring along my boyfriend?"

"Can I bring along my sister?"

"Can I bring along a friend?"

I am not a jealous sadist woman who wants all my friends to be single or have no friends at all, but when I ask to meet you, I seriously want to meet JUST YOU.

I would be happy for my friends if they find themselves a wonderful partner, but I am not their mother-in-law and I don't have to meet their life partners. I am also not a kopitiam ah-soh who wishes to know everything, and I prefer to spend time only with people whom I love because my time is superbly precious. I have the right to choose who I want to spend my time with, don't I?

I may be a forthcoming person, but I am not rude. So if you ask me if you can bring along another person for a gathering, I probably will say OK to it. But if I have a choice, I definitely won't say yes.


Dienstag, Juni 12, 2012

There is more to it...

我要做个自由自在,没有脚的小鸟。在对的时间,对的地点,为对的人停下脚步。在那时刻来临之前,我要放纵自己做喜欢做的事。因为人生只有一次。

Montag, Mai 28, 2012

Ich vermisse...

I miss Herr und Frau Sagemann... :(

How much longer do I have to wait to fly to Muenster? :(

Reminder for self: MUST type an email for Herr Sagemann after I finished my big hurdle in June, and before I begin another hurdle again in July!

Montag, April 23, 2012

Goodbye Baby<3



Personal milestone met, half a year earlier than planned! :)

Second milestone, here I come!!!

Sonntag, April 08, 2012

Ridiculed.

I feel like I've been ridiculed. DUH.

Dienstag, April 03, 2012

露宿街头。

因为引擎抛锚,所以息了火,踏出车外,往荒野的郊外走去。

郊外风光明媚,不过充满荆棘。刺得我好痛好痛。放了好多胶布,不过都没用。血一直流。
很想找个安全港,躲起来。不过,怎么找也找不到。找不到安全港,找不到胶布,找不到修车师傅。

好累。车还能修吗?

Sonntag, April 01, 2012

Japan, December 2011

Been too absorbed in silly things, that I forgot to blog about my happy trip last December! Here are some highlights from the trip with Theresa and Peiyi! =)
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Shirakawago- A World Heritage Site, with unique Gassho-style houses! Very good recommendation by Peiyi!
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Harajuku on Sunday (my last entire day in Japan). I didn't have enough money to splurge on shopping!!! It's my favourite shopping area (for now)!!!
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Nice home-cooked food by our host in Shirakawago. And after this photo, we took off our yakatas and just ate and ate... =P
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And we engaged in Luggage-carrying Competitions!
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Us in our Japanese-style room, in yukatas again. We were supposed to look for Miss Mount Fuji the next day, I think. And the preserved scallops in the shop downstairs are yummy!

Other than the possible radioactivity that we were exposing ourselves to, and the weird Japanese (usually men) who like to squeeze into trains and make us feel like tuna, Japan is a wonderful place with wonderful food and sweets and sights. I will definitely go back again! =)

Donnerstag, März 29, 2012

Sonntag, März 25, 2012

Being Myself.

Many people talk about the importance of being yourself, and being genuine.

All along, I pride myself for being genuine. Even my friends and teacher (my favourite teacher, Mr Alex Tan) find me super genuine.

But I am starting to think that being genuine may not be the best way after all.

Yes, people may think that I do no harm and I won't do any harm to them. But I can't stop people from judging me. In this world, everyone judges in every context, every moment. And I have no say over what others think or say of me.

And when I try so hard to be genuine, yet people judge me and doubt my ability, I feel hurt and see no point in being genuine.

But I will continue to be genuine (this is the way I truly am), to the people who really cares and still embraces me despite all odds. I don't need people to point out my weaknesses or shortcomings. I just need people who care and are willing to journey with me, and perhaps sometimes give me a pat on my shoulder to just tell me that I am fine the way I am.

Donnerstag, März 22, 2012

Bread and butter #462 (Social Workers' Day.)

On this day this year, I found out that the adorable boy whom I met only twice is in a vulnerable state and I have mixed feelings about what he is going through now. Such a young boy and he has to go through all these. I wanted to do more for him, but I know now he's in good hands.

On this day this year, another older boy whom I've known for 2 years shared with me his fears and feelings for the very first time. I feel heartened that he trusts me and is comfortable enough to show his soft and sweet side.

I may or may not be the most efficient, effective or outstanding SW, but I have to bear in mind that I am fortunate enough to do the work that I like to do, to meet these wonderful kids and to be able to journey with them. And when morale is running low, the kids kept me going. I will hang in there. For them, and for myself.

Freitag, März 09, 2012

Bread and butter #461 (Do you miss me?)

A youth didn't come for my programme, so I left him a message asking him about it.

And he asked, "So did you miss me?"

"Yes, I miss seeing you doing your work diligently."

Hahahahaha... Actually, I do miss his presence lah. It's funny how the most irritating kids can bring so much joy into our work. Don't know how I am going to cope with the loss of 4 Secondary 4 boys at the end of this year. Sigh... T-T

Dienstag, März 06, 2012

:'(

Water retention. Pain in the head and heart.

How long can I last...

Sonntag, März 04, 2012

안녕!

안녕하세요! 저는신띠예요. ^^


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Donnerstag, März 01, 2012

Bread and butter #460 (Michael Bublé - Home)


Now every time I hear this song, I am reminded of my boy, his humor, the interesting moments we had during the sessions, and the heartwarming bond between him and his mom. I will look forward to see him in 8 or 9 years' time, wherever I am.