Grace & Jun Qiang's Wedding!

During the day.

The guestbook area proudly decorated by the sisters!

My new resolution in every wedding that I attend: try my best to catch the bouquet! No, I'm not intending to get married. I just want a free bouquet of pretty flowers! :)

Very lovely wedding photos...

The sisters. Maid of honor was not around as she was busy with other stuffs.

Us again with maid of honor...'s husband.

The sisters with the couple in cardboard.

And then, the Charmed Ones! So so happy to meet Isaac again after almost 10 years, and on such a special occasion!!

Gonna make more effort to meet up with precious friends like them in 2012! =)

Bread and butter #457 (Really?)

 "There's a long way to go before your story ends. So don't lose your patience because you weren't fast enough. If you go slower, then you can see more along the way. If you ask me who will grow stronger... I think it's the one who took it slow." (Teacher Kang, Dream High, Episode 8)

Hen's Night for Theresa!

The Hen's Night Committee had a secret meeting without TW and we were caught?!

Can't believe it.

Of droughts and fertile soil...

Saw this whole chunk posted by a Korean friend on Facebook, and I decided to Google translate it... Some food for thought.

사람은 선천적으로 긍정적일 수 밖에 없다.

고통스러웠던 순간들도 지나고나면
몇가지 사실로 그 때의 아픔과 슬픔의 정도를 가늠 할 뿐
시간이 지나 과거가 된 기억에는 통증은 남지 않는다.

만약, 그같은 고통 망각이 없다면
과거를 떠올릴 때 그 순간에 있었던 통증이
다시 현재의 우리를 덮쳐온다면

우리는 현재의 시간을 견딜 수 있을까?

가끔은 잊지 말자 다짐했었던
것들조차 시간에 무뎌지곤 하지만

덕분에 우리는 다시 삶을 산다.

비록 고통스럽고 치열할지라도
아프고 벗어나고 싶을 만큼 고된 삶이라도

지나고 나면 오늘의 통증은 남지 않는다.
오히려 내일엔 더 비옥한 토양이 되겠지.


역설적으로 단지 풍요롭고 혼란이 없는 삶은
상대적으로 그저 그런 날들로 기억될런지도.

Very loose translation, but the main gist is there. So here goes:

People do not naturally can only be positive.

After the painful moments passed
By the fact that some of the pain and grief when, as to gauge the extent of
Over time, the old memories of past pain and do not stay.

If, if there is such a pain, forgetfulness
When you think of the past was in that moment of pain
If we grab the current comes back

We could cope with the current time?

Sometimes you do not forget who had committed
But even those at the time mudyeojigon

Again, thanks to the lives we live.

Even though painful, fierce
Are sick enough to want to get out of any hard life

Once passed, today's pain will remain.
Naeilen This is going to be rather more fertile soil.

Paradoxically, only a rich and hassle-free life
Remember how I just have such a relatively naldeulro.

Day out with my lovely SW pals!

We had local delights, walked a lot and talked a lot... Really glad that Corinne is back for a while, and that we spent time talking about life and new stuffs. Thanks girls, for the comforting company! :)

What is Christmas for me?

Christmas is nothing for me, except that it gives me more time to catch up with myself and my friends. All I wish is that my time is well spent with people I really love... :)

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Waiting- Panic

A simple song I got to listen to when I watched Dream High. Sad song, but it captivated me. :)

这公平吗？

为什么老天不能给珍惜生命的人多一点时间，活久一点，做多一点爱做的事情，说多一点要说的话，完成多一点梦想呢？

我只能尽量做我能做的，为你祈祷为你加油。

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JC girls gathering!

This is what I call "time well spent" :)

Bread and butter #456 (Reality strikes.)

Reality finally strikes.

And those who really stay around to support me will be greatly appreciated.

Thanks to the one who talked with me till 2+am last night, and thanks to the one who sent the reassuring email. I really really appreciate the effort.

This is a time to see who really cares and who really believes in me. But in any case, I will still fight on...

Grace's Hens Night

The second Hens Night that I attended in my entire life- on a yatch with the sisters. We ate, played games, gazed at the fireworks on Sentosa from afar, and felt dizzy during some parts of the ride. The waves can be quite choppy and vomit-inducing. Anyway, it was a unique experience! =)

Scared scared.

Waiting for my appointment with my dentist. Oh my tian. I hope the torturous process will be over soon soon. I feel so cold... :(

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天天天晴 :)

I usually don't watch such short dramas which starred less popular actors and actresses. But recently I started to watch this series of drama and I actually enjoyed it! Each episode is only 30 minutes, but each episode has a simple learning message or food for thought about life.

True. No matter what challenges life throws at us, as long as we stay hopeful, everyday will be a good day. 要相信天天会天晴! :)

Dumb is good.

Sometimes when I start to whine and wonder about life, I start to think if I brought a lot of things upon myself. I feel this way, because I did something first. People treat me this way, because I treat them that way first. What goes around comes around. Perhaps, that is really the case.

Perhaps lesser wisdom will do me good. Lesser thinking will do me good. I shall think less, I shall be less selfish, I shall treat people without hoping that they will reciprocate. Once you give, naturally you will get? Don't think about it. Urgh, but I feel upset when I don't get after giving.

I wish I am dumber. This blog is so emo. I don't like it. :(

Embrace life?

Should I continue to subject myself to stress? Or should I expose myself to more excitement and carefree moments? I guess these are part and parcel of life that I have to learn to let go... and learn to embrace...

Blues...

Since there is no one readily available for me (except maybe for one friend), I shall turn to my blog to share my woes.

I am very worried. Call me "over-worried" or "worry freak". I don't care. I am just very worried.

The two most important adults in my life are not doing well in their health and it's worrying. If they pass away, I'm going to be left all alone in this world. It's such a scary feeling, especially on Sunday when I first heard of the news. I had to work for the whole day and had no time at all to visit Jiu Jiu. In addition, the hospital visiting hours are strict and we can't just visit him any time we want.

I am scared and sad, but I can't really show my emotions because it will affect my Mo who is easily affected emotionally... and there I have many many many emotions stuck inside me that I can't really express... and have no where to express...

because I had to support my Mo, because I had to continue working, because I am just so scared.

Death can happen any time. I am not sure if I can endure the pain...

Feel like eating something sweet. Maybe it will lessen my pain and worry?

Reminder to self: Stay Calm.

OK. Stay calm. Stay STONE CALM.

......

Poke me one more time and I will just spill my shit all over. Is that what you want?

Morten Lauridsen - O magnum mysterium - Polyphony

One of the four songs we sang for our Prague competition... Really like this song, because of the melody as well as the history behind it. The first song was Hodie Natus Christus Et, the second song was Quem Vidistis Pastores Dicite, the last song was O Magnum Mysterium. I can't seem to remember the third song... =(

Ping shen me?

Just exactly how I feel right now... albeit I don't have a clear answer like Luo Zhi Xiang.

Had programme till 9pm, missed fun time with friends because of various reasons (not just because of feeling tired), had late dinner... but don't feel remembered, don't feel appreciated... I seriously don't know what I am working hard for... my actions and my words are worth little???

I am putting in so much effort in a lot of things, but why are people around me doing so little? It's really unfair... and I am still being expected to maintain my standard. What the hell is this???

I am trying my best, and yet some people can be so nonchalant or blur about things. I am putting in effort to think before I act, can you please show some effort too?

The only saving "graces" are the usual support my mentors give, no major misbehaviour during the programme despite the mad rush to prepare for closure, my kids' smiles as they received what I prepared for them... as well as an early birthday gift... :)

I really can't stand so many things... but at the end of the day, does anyone even bother to know what I go through and how I feel? Everyone is living in their own world and probably can't care much... I wonder...

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Bread and butter #455 (Vroom vroom!)

No crash and burn! And I could hear a bit of "vroom vroom".

Highway, here I come?

Dream High (noch einmal)

Watching the whole drama all over again... 再一次的感动! =)

The most boring 3 hours of my life (thus far)... -_-

It was such a horrifying experience... I went to office at 8plus in the morning and was in the process of opening the door... A lady approached me to ask about our centre, and I told her to wait while I unarm our office...

Then, I grabbed a centre brochure, pushed the glass door to talk to that lady... I stepped out of the office and explained to her our clientele, opening hours, etc... And suddenly I realised that the glass door is just a few centimetres away from closing...

And IT'S TOO LATE... The glass door closed right in front of me and I almost screamed in front of the public. T_T While I was still recovering from my major shock, that lady was stunned and told me she'll need to rush home (thanks =_=)... And left me outside alone... With just one stupid namecard. I got no phone, no money... NOTHING else with me.

I wanted to cry man. What am I supposed to do?!?! From what I can remember, JW has finished her classes on Saturday mornings (I found out that I was wrong later), no one else should be coming into office... My client's mother should be coming, and I can't just leave like that without informing her (my phone is in the office T_T)... So I stood outside the office in tee and shorts.

At about 9am, client's mother came and I explained to her what happened while trying to hide my shock and stupidity. She so kindly offered to send me home or leave her boy with me to help me run errands. So I decided to take the offer and be sent back to home area at least. I am so thankful for that ride!!! I can't imagine walking back home from clementi........

My mo was out for longer than expected. And I ended up waiting outside my house for at least 2 hours plus. Gosh, I did whatever that I can think of... Sang some of my old choir songs and realised that I can't remember how to sing some already :(... Played word games with myself... Thought of possible action plans once I can go inside my house... Fiddled with my cactus... Scrutinised my toes, fingers, legs and arms... Did the AJ clap... Napped... Oh man, it was SUPER BORING, I tell you.

Finally at 1pm, my mo miraculously appeared and wondered how did I end up outside the house when I'm supposed to be in office...

I rushed into the house, grabbed my old handphone and desperately switched it on. The power button seemed a bit weird and I prayed hard that the phone can still function. After about two minutes of desperate pressing, the phone is finally on!!! (I have to go back office somehow because I can't leave the office like that overnight, and I have to meet a client tomorrow so I definitely need my belongings that I placed in office.)

Then I quickly jotted down TW, SM, BT, XY, and NF's number. I don't have my sim card with me, but I have old smses stored in my old phone. Am so glad I haven't deleted them!!!

So I started calling... I am so glad SM and XY picked up my call!!! Felt so reassuring when boss told me he can go back office... *touched* XY is in office so I instructed her to stay there until I go back...

And this post is my documentation for the most boring 3 hours of my life... Gosh, how memorable... Hahaha... @_@

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Bread and butter #454 (Lovable Closure.)

I am quite happy to be able to go through an informal groupwork consultation with one of my older groupwork partners, the one that journeyed with me and the kids closely for the past few years...

From my video, I noticed my supporters. They were trying their best to support me. I noticed the kids whom I always try very hard to engage. They were actually already engaged in their very own unique ways, especially that silly boy who always acted cool and acted as if he doesn't care...

It feels magical how small actions and a few words could make a whole lot of difference. I am so excited to try them all out...

3 years passed by again, for another class... And it's time to bid farewell again. These kids are my lovable kids who bring me pain, joy as well as loads of self-reflection. I am thankful to have journeyed with them for the past few years, and I am glad to have met these wonderful kids who have so many more strengths that are yet to be unveiled.

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Bread and butter #453 (Aunty Serena is on leave.)

"Please help to clear the rubbish from your waste paper basket into the big rubbish bin at the pantry every day and help to keep the venues clean after every usage.

If you have programmes at the activity hub, please clean up the place before locking up.

Last but not least, if you see any place that is dirty, you can either

1. Get the broom / mop to clean up yourself
2. Get the broom / mop and ask another person to clean up together.
3. Inform me to assign someone to clean it up

Realized that no matter which option you choose, we have to clean it up? Haha.."

LOL at boss.

Korean Dramas: Spy Myeong Wol & That Fool

Current dramas that I'm watching...

1) Spy Myeong Wol

2) That Fool

Dramas with good OSTs usually win me over quite easily... and for these two dramas, I realised after googling for the theme songs that both songs are actually sang by Lena Park. Other than Utada Hikaru, I don't really like other female singers. I usually prefer male singers, especially those with strong and powerful (lack of other better vocabulary) vocals like Tom Albrecht and Tom Albrecht, haha, can't think of other voices that I like. In both songs, Lena Park's voice is very moving and those songs were stuck in my head for quite long after watching the dramas. Looks like Lena Park is going to be my second favourite female singer! ;)

A dear friend's wedding.

The bride!

And finally, she's ready!

The friendly sisters!

The "I love you" that I was wow-ing about.

I pity the brothers who had their faces facing the ground. ^_^

Piecing the puzzle together...

Angbao haggling. The ultimate act of SINCERITY- Angbao.

THE car!

Love the tea dress and the heels!

The couple.

I was in charge of holding the tray, for the first time in my life. >_<

And at night, the following movie is screened!!!

Aww.

Exchanging of vows and rings. Heartfelt moment.

I stole the photo below from Elayne's friend. Like it because it's a very natural shot, and some sort reflected their personalities haha!

The night zoomed by.

And finally, the sisters got together to split the earnings, hahahahaha!!!

Love the snapshots idea! Anybody wants to consider this for their wedding?

♥ Endless blessings for the couple, Elayne & Jameson ♥

Shut off.

Pretty disappointed with a lot of people and things. My melancholic self is scarily domineering, but I believe in my feelings. I feel disappointed for a reason. I feel angry for a reason. I feel sad for a reason. My feelings are not baseless and pointless. And I can't be bothered to explain if you are not free to listen. And guess what. I have no time to share now because I have better things to do, better adventures to plan, better self-loving journeys to have.

It's quite a hassle to think through and consider about little words and actions, so I try to keep quiet or "just do it". There's always a lot of harm done when I speak with a lack of self-control, so keeping silent is the way to go. And there are some things that I do because I really wanted to, not because I have ulterior motives. If people prefer to imagine otherwise, so be it. As long as I know I am sincere and I did what I can.

If you think I am not doing a good job, so be it. I can't be bothered. I know I have tried my best... I know I have fulfilled my duties to the best I can... and that's the most important thing for myself... sometimes I even go the extra mile, but I wonder why I have to go through all these.

If you think you're gonna scare the hell out of me, go ahead. Throw up a fuss, act like someone crazy, I don't care. I will go all out to protect myself from all the craziness that you subject me to and I will have no sympathy or regrets.

If you think I am not important, go ahead and lead your own life. I don't need you anyway.

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At times when I really don't know what to do... I would love to shut off and live in a world of my own..............

Bread and butter #452 (Mr A.)

It was a humbling meetup with Mr A. Looking at him, staying cheerful and strong amidst all the challenges in his life, makes me so happy! There was once when I was down recently that I thought about him for a while. He's a great role model for me. =)

It's OK to be selfish- just don't discount or ignore others' needs.

Oh great. Your needs are met. That's the most important thing right?

How about mine?

If I share my needs, and you are telling me that it's (my) personal (needs), then I see no point in sharing because it's my personal needs and you are not going to care anyway.

Talk about selfishness in humans- it's so prevalent.

I am selfish, but at least I don't discount or ignore others' needs.

First ever Hen's Night for my sister! =)

Me, Domokun, Flower Dog, and my BIG bag...

Group photo after dinner and all the crazy laughter we had.

Cosy theme!

All the soft toys!

And finally, the bride...

滿滿的祝福 for you! =)

Like a kid.

If you treat me like a kid, I will behave like a kid. If you treat me like an adult, I'll really make sure I behave like an adult. Goodness. Really don't understand how some adults think and function these days...

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[2PM] The story of great warmth =)

Brought me lots of warmth indeed =)