Bread and butter #444 (Y.E.A.N)

Youth Evolution Awards Night.

Made cards for boys whom I've never made any for... Clapped like I've never clapped before... Cheered like I've never cheered before... Was asked to go on stage to receive thanks, a stalk of rose and a round of applause... for the first time in my life... Felt this warm fuzzy feeling that I've never felt before... especially after receiving the email the day after. Really appreciate the thought and effort behind this.

Seen so many smiles just within that 2 hours... but imagine how much hard work has been done to make this event possible... the effort made by all the kids for the past 6 months, and of course the Social Workers too.

Cheers to everyone who made it possible, and of course, cheers to the lovely kids who never gave up and showed others what they are capable of.

Learning to be Lazy.

I need to remind myself constantly not to think too much. Just sit back and relax. No need to be too hardworking in thinking about the intention behind words and actions. Sometimes, there's just no clear cut answers. And like what SA said this morning- "don't take things personally"...

:)

Reframe Shit.

In life, we don't have to reframe everything.

Sometimes we face shit, so it's okay to complain and whine a bit before we reframe the shit and move on. Urgh.

Doesn't mean that my profession involves a lot of reframing so I can't complain about life.

I'm not God. Duh.

SHIT.

Bracing myself for the tough times ahead.

Today I got reminded of a possible bleak future and can't help but feel a bit miserable about it.

So I decided to pack my old stuffs and found a box filled with my old cards, postcards and letters from friends from different stages of my life- secondary school, JC, university, the first few working years, etc. I found small things that were precious to me too, e.g. souvenirs from my Europe trips, postcards I bought whenever I visit a new country, maps.

Earlier today, I received an unexpected affirmation from a Papa, and my songwriter boy told me that he's doing very well recently and thanked me for being there for him. I pondered about how my skills might have impacted on clients directly or indirectly, but I still can't find any answer. Some didn't turn out well, some did. And I am glad for that.

I am not sure why, but all these little things make me feel thankful that I am able to stay calm and happy, and am able to count my blessings even though life may not be smoothsailing all the way.

Can do lah, i will figure out something! One step at a time. :)

Bread and butter #443 (Miss Heart)

There are times when I really lack confidence in my assessment but I figured out I just have to work very hard during the sessions and occasionally go by my gut feeling. And I guess, my gut feeling this time round is good and accurate.

The message given to each youth should be unique- catered to their unique experiences, highlighting their unique strengths and expressing our unique hopes for each of them. You can really tell whether they can relate to what you have to say. And when they can really connect with your idea, it's an amazing feeling...

Previously it was Miss Aladdin, and now Miss Heart. Their live experiences have touched me in a special way and have motivated me to work really hard and look out for the uniqueness in each youth. Blessings and hopes abound for the two of them who journeyed with me for the past 6 months. :)

Random 25

Decided to do this because I saw someone posted this on Facebook and I realise it's been ages since I did something as silly as this.. So here goes!

1) I bought a smart phone last month!! My phonebill was shocking as I failed to set appropriate settings. I've since then learned from my lesson...

2) I bought a new pair of black heels! Power suit. Poof!

3) Did an assembly talk for the first time in my life.. Just like what Papa said, "Think good, feel good!" I can do it! :)

4) Not been having enough sleep- I'm dozing off any time and anywhere I can. Gosh.

5) My brain is dead every night.

6) I wanna go Russia!

7) I wanna go back Muenster!!!

8) I wanna go North Korea!!

9) Going for first aid course soon. Hopefully I can absorb what I'm supposed to absorb.

10) Wanna do some scrapbooking, but haven't got the time...

11) I've been working on Sundays more often nowadays because I need to meet some parents... Gimme back my life... And the worse case scenario is: They FORGOT about the appointment!!! T_T

12) Weather is so hot nowadays that I have to continuously keep my hair in a bun. God.

13) Been contemplating to find a new hair stylist because the old one is kinda taking me for granted.

14) I (still) love my coffee from "Malay Stall" favourite kopi aunty.

15) Clementi Market's beehoon is DA BEST.

16) My finger is "clicking" lesser nowadays, thanks to Eu Yan Sang! :)

Can't think of other things now... So that's all for now! :p

Bread and butter #442 (天下没有不散的筵席)

"It's the first season of ACE League.. but it's the last season I'm going to play in.."

天下没有不散的筵席... heart is slightly pain, but life goes on.. the boys have grown stronger and it's time to move on. :')

All the lovely boys and lovely moments will remain in my heart.

Bread and butter #441 (Rewarding Sunday.)

It is surely comforting to know that my preparation and hard work paid off and contributed to meaningful sessions. At the end of the day: positive feedback, positive response, and positive feedback loop of me learning and practicing even harder in the near future. Phew! :)

Sweet adrenaline rush.

Every Move You Make (讀心神探)

After watching this drama, I am more inspired to watch out for body languages... Wuahahaha.

Bread and butter #440 (Gearing towards the highway, but still on the grassland...)

I've been wanting to gear towards the highway, but the road ahead seems tough... sometimes the vehicle is taking a super long time to start up, sometimes the vehicle is too fearful of the highway ahead that it's having a rough time starting up and moving ahead. Gosh, I don't think I'm anywhere near the highway yet. Probably still on the ground and perhaps sinking into the mud.

But I have to keep striving, keep trying, keep hoping. Because the highway is attractive and alluring... I can't help but hope to get there somehow. I know I might have to take a longer time, but I just want to try.

Meanwhile, I needs loads of fuel too. I realised I gotta be independent in terms of obtaining fuel. I can't always depend on others to send me to the petrol station or bring fuel to me without me doing anything. They may need fuel for themselves too anyway. I will think of some way to cope, somehow.

At the end of the day, I will still be gearing towards the highway. And I do hope that the vehicles around me will be in good condition to journey with me as well. Jiayou bah, everyone. Especially Mengtor, Wang Wang & Teo Beh Bio.

Humans are not apps.

Friendship is a two-way thing. Don't expect auto-updates. Humans are not apps.

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Bread and butter #439 (Lovely Closure with Miss Aladdin♥)

My message for Miss Aladdin:

"If you realise your mistake, reflect and correct yourself, and grow, then rise to the top of the hill, then you can be the heroine of the story. Your story is far from over. So don’t lose your patience just because you weren’t fast enough. If you go slower then you can see more along the way. If you ask me which person will grow stronger… I think it would be the one who took it slow."

Familiar? :)

Bread and butter #438 (My cutting edge.)

I'm super tired sometimes, from searching high and low for my cutting edge. It can get quite frustrating, especially after 3.5 years in the field.

Perhaps I have many cutting edges. Perhaps I have only one. But I guess I will need time to find it/ them...

But I am tempted to use my weaknesses as my cutting edges... cut cut CUT!

Good Friday Dinner with SW Pals!

My miserable afternoon was made happier =)

(♯｀∧´)

So now I can't even share how I feel 'cos once I share, I'm expected to have understanding towards others, even though others include people whom I don't really care for. My original logic is that I'll be understanding towards others who regard me as a friend or whom I deem as important. But if I'm required to show understanding towards people who doesn't even regard me as important, I think I have better things to do. Seriously. I won't share my views anymore, if I'm expected to be an angel who shows understanding towards every single thing, every single soul. I rather die of suffocation of negative personal feelings than to verbalize them and have to withstand all the negative feedback.

Bread and butter #437

Cannot be selfish and think for my own needs only...

Gotta learn to think for others, and what they may benefit from...

Cry less, and learn to be happy for others.

Will aim to accomplish this, step by step.

Roadtrip with Harem! ^_^

FIRST STOP: Indonesian Restaurant at Novena Square 2!

Feels like a palace! :P

SECOND STOP: Papa Palheta! (somewhere near Newton)

Always been wanting to visit it, but no one to go with me!

Yeah to the harem!

Fellow coffee-enthusiast!

KeepCup! I bought one for myself! ^_^

Looking at this photo reminds me of Shang May peeling my KeepCup... >_<

THIRD STOP: Cheesecake at East Coast! Super sinful!

THIRD STOP: Nex Mall at Serangoon. Crazy queue for the carpark made us girls went crazy over Lijia's iphone, hahaha. We had Freshness Burger for dinner. YES WE ATE AGAIN!!!

FOURTH STOP: Mr Bean at Fajar Shopping Centre. Desserts to end off our exciting roadtrip! ^_^ I'm lovin' it!

I tried my best...

Not to let my experiences overpower me. Not to let my experiences affect others. You can try to understand me. And I will deeply appreciate it. But if history repeats itself, I can't guarantee that I can react in the best manner. Afterall, I'm just a human being.

4 things I thought about when I was jogging...

1) My counselling session
2) When can I play badminton again??? And I actually thought of playing with Elayne.
3) Kimchi Soup
4) Spicy Chicken Soup

I didn't eat korean food last week and I felt so miserable... as I was thinking about the korean soups, I got so hungry... :( Hahahahaha...

Quem Vidistis Pastores- Francis Poulenc

This song brings back so many memories. Used to not like the melody as I sang it with my AJChoir then, but grew to like it after the competition at Prague. =_= The part at 2:23 is a part that I forever can't sing in perfection- it also goes to show how tough the Altos' part can be... Nevertheless, I still love choral singing! ^_^