Cindy the Big Joker.

Just a quick post b4 i go on with my photocopying in the lib.. urgh..

I suddenly have this urge to stay in sch and study properly.. haha.. reminded myself of JC days when i'll stay in sch till 8pm then rush all de way home and have my dinner.. Kaiyin even made fun of me saying..

"Aiyo.. always pack up zhun zhun at 8pm~!!" (kaiyin luffs in e backgrd..)

haha.. basically, i jus dump all my readgs into my bag and zoom~!! on my way home le.. haha.. so cute..

So i was in a low mood today.. something bad happened..

I MISSED MY PSYCHOLOGY TUTORIAL UNINTENTIONALLY~!!!

then i went to apologize.. i guess they dun chi zhe yi tao.. my gut told me tt my tutor dun trust me at all, thinks tt i missed it intentionally.. What the hell. i dun like him leh. i dunno why.. haha.

But me gg for make up next week la.. so wont miss out any points given.. Must get well-prepared or else he'll look down on me~!

Den i was reminded of wad my bro did to me yesterday.. URGH.. *sad*

Then to make things worse, i almost failed my German test.. what the.. ALMOST FAIL LEH~!!! my goodness.. Isnt it a big joke if u sign up for immersion but u fail your german exams.. WHAT A JOKE~!!

"wah.. got face to join immersion when u fail ur exams??"

Got this feeling tt it'll turn out to be a big mess if i fail my German test ultimately.. this test got a rather significant standing in our final grade leh.. *demoralised*

so anyway, me gg to rush off to finish off my research work den mayb go home le. *pray hard for me~*

Red Bomb Coming Soon.. at the end of this year~* BiSh!

Well.. my com jus need a few minutes to warm up beofre it can totally go online.. sth like.. can go to julia's blog but cant go to mine. then cannot log into my ivle.. so stupid.. then after a while can liao. DUMB.

Anyway, this has got nth to do wif the happy thing i mentioned last entry.

Today i received a quite big news too..

MY BRO'S GETTING MARRIED~*

oh my.. i wasnt quite surprised cos his gf always hint here hint there.. like as if they will get married any time. hmm.. i got not much comments cos not me getting married mah.. as long as they are happy then gd liao la.. Wishing them happiness forever bah.. hmm.. i shd go hunt for a wedding gift during my sem hols.

And after reporting abt my big bro, i'm gg to complain abt my 2nd bro.

Today his gf is gg Italy.. wif my jacket.. so my jacket is leaving me for Italy.. so selfish of u~! mao mao jacket~!! and me jealous~!!! go w/o me. *hrmph*

So.. i decided to send her a msg.. but dun have her hp no. so i msged my bro, saying tt asking her to take care and yi lu shun feng..

And ya know how bro replied???

"Shut up la.."

WHAT THE HELL.

k lo. i shut up~!!!

See.. tt's the thing abt havin elder brothers.They always ask u to shut up.. How childish and stupid is this kind of behavior? When can they try to appreciate their sis?

Other than their mum, no other woman(other than their gfs) wld care for them so much lo.

STupid brothers. heck them.

Urgh.. i got the same feelings as julia lor. sometimes, i know i'm not desperate but seeing couples ard jus makes u feel that..

"U are a lonely soul out there.."

But it's okay la.. wo you bu shi yang bu qi zi ji.. RYtE?

Basically i slacked for the whole day.. sang songs.. and went to see my new residence.. yes.. gd news in last post is abt my new residence. tt's why all my responsibilities are gg to flow in some how.. bills.. on my own.. help my mum here and there..

There's not yet gd news abt the immersion..

Dedicated my my dearest Ah-Ma~!! I MISS YOU~!!

Hey~!

i dunno if i'm too chong dong or wad but bought one piece of cloth (i think 2 metres), preparing to ask my mum to make a dress for me next CNY. heh. it looks like batik.. a lil like those singapore girls uniform cloth.. hahaha~! it looks very bright and colourful..
now i'm a lil afraid it'll be too colourful.. hmm.. if my mum make it into a tube dress or a simple dress shd be okay ryte?

heh heh.

seeing the beautiful cloth makes me all excited for next CNY.. haha~! anyway, i might jus go overseas lor. ya nv noe. i dun like visiting.. all i like abt CNY is the Ang Baos. tt's bcos i dun have anymore Ah Gongs and Ah Mas.. miss saying this line to my Ah-Ma..

"Xin Ti Gian Kong.. Ang Bao Dua Dua Hong~*!!"
(gd health, big angbaos~ in hokkien)

i always says tt every chu 1 to her.. then she'll laugh laugh laugh and hand me an ang bao. She's always so cheerful and cute.. i like her cookings too. not extremely nice but i jus love it. Remember she always buy those heart shape sweets for me.. (think u know wad brand ryte? honestly i forgot wad brand le)

Today i was reminded of her (i duno how the hell i suddenly tot of her) and tears started to dwell up in my eyes. I tot of seeing her in the hospital looking v depressed. And it's the first time i see her in such a stt. i forgot why she was depressed basically.. but i jus cant stand looking at her.

ok so anyway.. my grandma passed away(i think) with no troubles at all. It's jus tt my mum and i will cry whenever we think of her. sigh.

So anyway, back to my life.. i studieda bit of psycho in e morning.. actually not a bit only hor.. i read half of chapter6 and chapter5.. neh~ :P You know how fat and heavy the textbook is? It is damn OVERWEIGHT~! and then i proceeded to read a lil family reading and i slacked... All the way until now.. hmm.. not much time left le hor? haha.. shd go catch my beauty sleep..

oh ya.. sth happy is happening soon.. yeah~!

Oh.. just finished my Social Work lecture and i MANAGED TO KEEP MYSELF AWAKE~!!! haha.. by having a mini nap in central lib and then a cup of (not v nice) 50 cents coffee before my lect.. hehe.. whh helped a lot. so i took a lot of notes and i'm so damn proud of myself..
HAHAHAHAHAHAH~!!

did i say b4 i like Xiaobai? heh.

okay.. shall go home now.. heh.. have to do readgs then mayb go back to sch to do research or wad.. urgh.. i better start my term paper early.. OoO~ *shivers*

Used to catch this drama every Saturday evening after I mug like hell during my JC days' weekends. Nice memories... =)

thankyou Julia for calling me.. (i think for the fear i wld really kill myself) to ask if i'm ok.. she's one person who takes an effort to make sure i'm ok..

THANKS~!!!

okie dokie. i wan my blog to be more impersonal.. tt means i'll censor all my feelings towards my frends or else i'll get into trouble.. yea, i'm a coward.

but thanks to all those ppl who lent me ur eyes.. in msn.. ZHUMEI~!!!! love ya~* U're always my gd listening eye in msn.. haha..

i dunno how to start on my SS essay leh.. Singapore's history is so complicated.

14th century ~ Rise of Temasik..

then suddenly.. fell of it.. then suddenly, 19th century founded by our handsome Sir Stamford Raffles..

oOpS~! jus trying to be funy.

and then i realise tt there's actually a gap between 14th century and 19th century.. where there's no recordin of Spore's past~!

What the..

Kill me.

Now, i'm damn damn sian.. dunno why.. mayb PMS bah.. mayb bocs of the recent brain storming abt the German immersion.. i felt tt i talked too much.. and having a blog isnt as gd as i thought it will be.

i realise sometimes i hate to listen to ppl's comments.

There's this Korean actress who killed herself today.. why kill yourself? *sighz*

Today i was wif ifah and julia eating in the supposedly filled-with-all-damn-kinds-of-delicious-food arts canteen.. Julia couldnt resist buying the potato salad whh is like so damn nice~!! it's better than Pasta Mania's potato salad lor~! definitely gg to buy it when i hav to dine alone in sch..

I'm scared to everything.. scared tt i dun have any more frends.. scared tt my mum will die.. scared tt i wont have enuff money.. i'm such a weirdo. cant stand myself.

Today Julia told me tt she wld sometimes cry when she look at our class photos. I wld like to say "ME TOO~*" but i dun dare.. i guess i'm jus like those chavinistic men who dun express their emotions easily (except hatred)

Time has past so quickly.. and my frends seem to be lesser and lesser.. we have fewer and fewer things to talk abt.. jus feel a lil weird.. why do all these happen when we write notes to each other saying tt we'll be best of frends forever?


Had two missed calls from grace.. dunno whether she wanna call for fun or sth had happened to her. i hope she calls back.

Abt my blog, if i say my emotions too clearly, ppl might day tt i'm being insensitive. Actually, i'm indeed insensitive and immature.. But i dun wan my frends to read my blog and then think tt i'm agst them or wad.. so i shall reduce my personal content bah..

Well.. about my immersion trip, a lot of ppl not gg lor. and i heard fr alvin that the tix is ard $1800++.. *faint*

WAD?!

Oh my god.. tt means i've to spent a minimum of $4000??!! tt's like most of my savings gone~!!! i read thru comments given by my frends..

"no money.."

well, i got it but i started to think if i'm bu xiao by spending my money on immersion trip and not using them to help my family to tide through our crisis. i started to feel guilty.. why must this all happen to me?

Today i'm supposed to be happy.. but why am i not?

pls dun comment

this guy likes to pao old women.. dunno why.. i feel tt he's not as sentimental to women as to Sojiro but he's definitely a loyal frend. thumbs up~!

Hanazawa Rui- Tsukushi's first crush.

this guy.. changes gf every week.. or shall i say everyday? but actually, i feel tt he's a very nice guy.

This is the guy whom i liked in the 2nd place.. haha.. not first tho. heh. i just found out that Hana Yori Dango actually means boys over flowers~??!! oh.. wad an interestg name!! i tot it's some name called boys of flowers or wad.

P/S: Hana Yori Dango actually means, ''flowers over rice balls''.

yeah~!!! finally got new pictures to show.. from my fav comic series.. Tsukushi Chan~!!

*Edited Version*

HaO wAi HaO wAi~!!!

this wed my vice dean is appearing on tv at channel U, 8:30pm~!! in the programme called Fei Chang Tou Shi Yan.. it's gg to be on homosexual couples whh i think will be damn interestg~!

SO do watch k~!!!

Yesterday i send an email to a tuition agency's person-in-charge to tell him tt i signed up for three assignments online and they ignore me for weeks and nv give me an answer.. this kind of online tuition agency just SUCKS LIKE HELL cos they're so inefficient at doing stuff.. by the time they process the whole thing, i guess the kid might as well fail his exams.

WHAT THE...

so now, i'm living on my medium fat wallet.. nv go for ice cream buffet so i saved $20.. i shall not spend anymore money le.. as in on consumer gds.. cos i spent more than enough liao oh~! shall not spend anymore till... mayb immersion trip.. yah.. immersion trip have to buy sth for myself la.. in Germany.. hope jialing will go..

But she said she wanna go but money-wise is a prob.. i dun wanna persuade her any further cos if she dun wanna go, no one can force her.. ryte?

Some weird guy told her tt those trips are a waste of money. i mean, if u feel tt everything's a waste of money, of course u wld feel tt it's a wasted trip ryte?

Then if u really wanna try out German lifestyle and everything and u really love it, no one wld stop u lor. i guess tt guy is either very poor. or rich but stingy. smack ur butt.

in any case i'm using my own money for the whole trip lor.. so..

shut up u stupid lil brats who can use ur daddy's or mummy's money to go for the trips~!!!$*(%$#&!

then i assured her by saying tt my senior says it's a worth while trip. i believe in my senior lor.. she's pearlene and she went to prague wif me during j1.. so i guess she jus loves Europe as much as me.. i tell u once u go europe u'll fall in love wif it..

but she dun really believe.. (at least tt's what i feel at tt time).. tt's why i got a lil irritated and i just stopped talking abt it..

u wanna go then u go lor.. u dun wan i also cant force u..

so anyway, i hope geokwei can go wif me.. but she got competition lor.. in may~!!! then can only go for the july one.. but.. JULY?? isnt it a lil late??

so i'm really not sure if i shd go alone.. scary.. i'll collect opinions fr my other German language classmates first.. *shivers* cos i usually dunno all the stupid admin stuff at the airport..

shall stop slacking and go study~!

11pm: just edited a lil after i talked to jialing on e phone..

well well.. jialing says she wanna go jus tt she finds the price a lil high. wadever la.. sighz. She sounded quite irritated.. and i was reminded of our some sort of argument last sem. forgot liao.. i only remembered tt i was super irritated.. Given my very FoUl TeMpEr.. haha..

i guess we're jus not of the same sort of person..

some ppl do understand me but others dun..

some ppl can ta-han my weird temper.. some cannot..

some ppl got beaten by me nv say anything.. some die also wont let me touch them.

some say i'm humorous but others find me too noisy.

some find me hardworking but others find me dumb.

So u see, it depends on who i'm with.. and then my attitude changes accordingly.. tt's why some times i'm better to somebody and not v gd to others.

NO ICE CREAM BUFFET LE~!!!

ningjia wana go clubbing and she complaint tt she over-spent.. WAD THE. actually i'm kind of agst clubbing.. i dunno why.. i felt tt it's sinful.. mayb financial wise bah.. and mayb bcos of the "looking-out-for-potential-partner" factor.. i jus feel tt it's not very good and healthy.. mayb my mum is strict or wad?

And then julia says she got no mood (whh i think is bcos of nj not wanting to make it tml and her big aunt).. well well..

but we made a pact of meeting for lunch in NUS on wed.. now dun say u no mood to come on wed hor..
OR ELSE..

see ya on wed k~*

Just had a nap.. took 5 whole hrs to revise the damn Singapore studies module up to lecture3 plus tutorial.. so now i finally understood wad's gg on in the lame and boring lectures.. how great~*!! (sarcastic) Urgh.

i tried to wake up earlier today but to no avail.. work hard leh.. CINDY KOH~!!! tml still wana eat icecream leh.. where got time to study??
HUH???

okay.. shall go mug like hell.. that is.. if i can.. heh.


i like reading Xiaxue's blog.. haha..

I'd painted my nails metallic maroon.. haha.. i felt that it's cool.. but my mum kept saying my nails look dirty.. (..") i dun care.. i feel tt it's damn striking and i took such a long long time to apply on all of my ten nails.. PHeW~! almost vomitted blood.

i lost quite a few bucks to my 2nd bro.. Urgh~! sighz.. i'm jus not pro enuff in Mahjong.. aiyoh.. but i can say tt it's v interestg..

oh ya.. wif regards to my very horrible shoppin habits recently, i shall not spend anymore money till next year le..i got all the stuff i need and i guess i can give the covered toe shoes a miss cos i got a lot of shoes.. sighz..


this man looks so lame.. hahahaahhahahaha~!!!

okie.. me gg off.. shall study hard during the hols too.. u all too k~!!!


*yearning for this sem to end*

Just finished my Mahjong Session and woo~, i feel a lil shiok. not that i win money.. i even lost.. BUT i only play Mahjong once a year during CNY.. so.. haha..it's quite fun. Somemore losing money to ur loved ones is ok la.. nvm.. CNY mah.. must be happy..

Anyway, i felt a lil sinned.. today i spent money again.. but those stuff tt i buy are really worth it cos they're cheap~!

Cargo pants.. only $10~!!!
Cargo Backpack (not my dream one but at least i have one light and ''doesnt look so childish'' backpack.. for $15.. those nice ones hor are ard $20++..sighz.. no choice lor.. wanna buy so must buy cheap ones..

actually i kind of felt disappointed in tt bag cos it's not very pretty.. but i hope i'll grow to like it.. diaoz.

HOW CAN I MISS OUT WATCHING VICE-DEAN TODAY ON CHANNEL NEWS ASIA WHEN I'M MORE EXCITED THAN ANYONE ElSE~???!!??

what the hell.

jialing said she sounded diff on tv.. more serious.. but when she's lecturing, she's so funny.. she can tickle us badly.. a lil like Mrs Woo.. those clever aunties.. but she's lamer than Mrs Woo. . heh. but i still like her.

anyway, i hate to be poor. If only i were to be a billionaire.

u know, when u're poor, u have to jing da xi suan. and sometimes, i feel so paiseh tt i seemed so 'mao'.. i dun mean it k.. cos u all shd understand my situation la.. so next time if i ask u to return me the money u owed me, dun gimme the "wahlao.. cindy is so sensitive to money!" face. cos i dun feel gd askin the money back too. u think i feel comfortable?

(the following is not subjed to anyone in particular but to my attitude towards money. i hope u all understands~* thanks..)

Today's Psycho test is a killer. at least to me. i was almost killed wif all the terms.. parietal lobe la.. thylamus la.. hippocampus la.. temporal lobe.. Blah~

If i never fail, i'll already be glad..

Thanks ifah for promoting my blog to the IT-blur jialing.. but dun thinks she'll read la cos she dun even check her email for weeks~!

Me so sleepy shall go sleep le.. see ya in the hols ppl~!!